Going Insane, Anxiety, Panic..

Mental health
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Alright all, I am new here and I have recently been going insane..

It all started 3 months ago when I had a random panic attack and thought I was done for, dying. Well as you see I did not, but now it is all I think about..

I scheduled an apt with my doc and they told me it was classic anxiety/panic but decided to do a full blood test and heart cardiogram since I have been getting palpitations that they said might be from excess adreneline and stress. Everything checked out fine and they sent me on my way with some Ativan to take in case of panic.

So let me give a recap of my last 3 months..

I lost my job since anxiety literally took over my life, I stay in bed/home all day now and have no drive or motivation to do anything I used to love doing, like going outside, driving around, heading downtown to the sights and places..

I cannot leave my house without having a panic attack now. I tried to go out with my buddy and I had to have him turn around after 2 miles because I was freaking out so bad I thought I was gonna drop dead or pass out..

This is running my life and I cannot take it... This anxiety/panic came out of NO WHERE. I used to love being outside, traveling to other states, etc but now im a prisoner in my own home.

The feelings I get are pretty hard to explain but I will do my best..

So basically it might sound weird, but in times when I try to go out of my comfort zone of my house, my breathing becomes manual and I always think about breathing, I get very fidgity, I have to touch and move around, cannot sit still or it seems to make my anxiety worse. The WORST feeling I get is the sense of not being real..that is the best way to describe it.. Almost like I could be in a video game or sense of "losing it". I told that to someone and they looked at me like I was insane.. which didnt help my cause.

I always have a dreadful sense of overwhelming doom that something horrible is going to happen to me and or going to drop dead at any minute.. I have no idea what to do anymore...

I am coming on here as my last effort for some comfort or guidience.. I dunno maybe expressing myself fully online will somehow ease my symptoms..

Now I still get anxiety and panic at my house but so far it is not NEARLY as bad as leaving.

Ativan doesnt help me at all.

Anyway... Sorry for the long winded post but...ya.

Thanks all.

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I am so sorry to hear this it sounds very similar to me .. The not feeling hear symptoms and in like a video game are depersonalisation and derealization I have had this very badly for thelast few months but fingers crossed I seem to be getting slightly better I still can't go out by myself but will with other people I don't like being in the house by myself and I still can't drive but I am better than I was .. Do you have much support at home x

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You need to go back to see your GP, possibly a course of CBT may help to control your Anxiety and Panic Attacks

You could try Relaxation Techniques the one they use now is Mindfulness. You can get books on the subject

Breathing Techniques may also help you, these techniques are on the internet so look and give them a try

You can discuss your medication with your Doctor and explain what is going on.

Keep a hold

BOB

 

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I will have to research that depersonalision and realization. It is the worst thing I have ever experienced in my entire life... Physical pain has nothing on  mental pain.... Yes  I have a good support system but it is just  hard to explain or for people to help me (friends and family) when they have never experienced it. They try to help but I end up getting frustrated and have my symtoms worsen when I talk about them because it is all I think about...

It is just so strange to me and scary that these symptoms came out of no where. I have never experienced any mental issues in my entire life other than this!

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I have tried going out alone, and with friends and neither help. My friends try to distract me with small talk but I just zone out and think about my next panic attack and then it happens. It is like I am a prisoner to my own mind and no one has the key it feels.

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Go back to your GP speak to them about some other medication and perhaps some therapy.. I feel the same it's horrible how your own mind can make you feel so bad x

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I just dont really like to take medication if I dont have to, part of me wants to just plow through this if i can since I lived 24 years of my life stress, anxiety, panic free... 

I def feel that maybe my breathing is causing a lot of problems too since I start to "manual" breath and probaly start to hyperventilate..

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Oh dear I know the feeling very well.. I been suffering from severe anxiety for the last 4 months... it has been a lot of work to get where I am now now where I want to be but not as bad. First I would suggest you get therapy that helps a lot. After a long time of thinking I decided to get on meds still trying to find the right dose and that is the hard part 80% of people give up the first month because of the side effects. Need to find a support group as well but most important you have to change your mind set trust me you probably saying how!!! It takes a lot of practice and remember it doesn't happen overnight.. everyday is a struggle I know but we can't let this anxiety take over our life I tell myself that everyday Maria

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The deperaonalisation and derealization are the symptoms I struggle with the most I feel like I am not really here and that I don't really recognise my surroundings. I also can't get my head round how I speak and walk ect it is terrifying x

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Hi i have just been diagnosed in the last couple of weeks with anxiety and its scary. It was a slow burner due to different issues. I am just about to start therapy. I didn't want to take medication either but things developed and i agreed to start. The dosage isn't quite there yet and i am still a long way off where i want to be. I am glad i have joined this forum it might help me focus on more positives. I have been "leaning" on friends and family for too long and its not fair on them. Please go speak to your GP again and tell them everything. Holding back won't help it go away.

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If you hyperventilate, take a paper bag and breath into it

This produces Carbon Dioxide?? e and will sort out the problem.

Do not use a plastic bag that can suffocate

If it takes medication it is what needs to be done to make you feel better

BOB