Im scared for my life, have been for about 2-2.5 months. I'm a 16 year old male. During the summer while with my friends I had a bad panic attack. After it occured everything went back to normal and I moved on. Come the start of school I had another. I told no one and concluded they were panic attacks based on what I searched on the internet. Once again I moved on. A couple months into school I begin this constant feeling of depersonalization. I've felt it for around 2.5 months now. I continued to live with it speaking with my guidence counseler about it. While getting the nauseous feeling that comes with anxiety and depersonalization. I searched the internet and "diagnosed" myself with numerous diseases and disorders causing even more worry. A couple weeks ago i found enlarged lymph nodes in my groin area and a small one in my neck. The nausea became worse and I lost 5 pounds. I went to see the doctor she said it was probably nothing and I had blood test done coming back fine. When I saw the lymph nodes I was 100% convinced I have cancer and then after the blood test i stopped worrying about that. Now about a week or two after seeing the doctor the lymph nodes are still out but are not growing I also have stopped losing weight. The depersonalization remain. The new thing is now muscle twitches. I have been getting them throughout my body and after looking on the internet once again am convinced I have a neurological disorder. I'm scared I'll die. I'm scared that it isn't anxiety and that something is in fact wrong. The thing being I had two panic attacks a certain amount of time previous to this ongoing depersonalization but haven't had one during. Please help.
It sounds like anxiety to me! It can be frightening and the more afraid we are the more hypersensitive we become to every sensation in our bodies and the more magnified our symptoms feel. Try telling yourself and believing it is anxiety and the symptoms decrease. It isn't easy to believe anxiety can create so many symptoms! You are not alone!
anxiety is horrible and the mind is a powerful thing if possible try to be positive reassure yourself its only anxiety i know the depersonalization sucks im going thru it at the moment 24-7
Thank you both for answering Tracie and Tammie!! Im just really scared its something wrong! Whenever I forget about the symptoms and just tell myself everything is going to be okay I either feel another symptom and they all come rushing back or I look in the mirror or realize my depersonalization and then it all comes back 
Tammie can you talk abit about your dp so I know if mine is similar?
I'm really scared it isn't anxiety and is something terrible 
i dont feel like myself i feel off like nothing around me is real so i get scared anxious always on edge i hate it i feel like im losing my mind tbh and my heart races fast when i start stressing about it
also brain fog
I have been in similar situations, most recently my lower back was feeling weird and the muscle spasms wrapped around to my abdomen . I was convinced it was something terrible like a tumor pressing on nerves... I had tests and X-rays and blood work all results normal!
I also have depersonalization/de realization I feel like I'm in a cloud. I feel like I'm watching things instead of participating in them.
I too do not feel like myself. When i look in the mirror its scary I'm thinking is that really you? When I move my arms its like ik im doing that but its as if im not really controlling it if that makes any sense. It worsens the more im worrying but is constant. im scared its a brain problem or or smt is wrong in my brain
I feel as tho im crazy and will lose control...
This sounds very similar to me which is weird.
So the beginning of this month I had a bump on my neck so I thought it was a sore muscle, although it did go down a few days later I was feeling the area and felt a hard pea shaped thing. I read online and found that it was a lymph node and I scared my mself to death thinking I also had cancer. I went to my doctor and she said she'll give it a month and it it's still there then we'll run some test. It does make my neck hurt too. Its still the same small size, and still frightening. I've also notice that I am nauseous it's not all the time but it's more frequent since I discovered the lymph node. I have to wait until Jan 13th to see my doc again.
I am also getting muscle twitching and I'm guessing muscles spasms(it's like a stinging sensation) in my legs not all the time but a few times a day, in both legs (not at the same time). I was scared to death (again) that it was a dvt but since it was in both legs and bearable I kinda ruled it out. As I'm typing in experiencing the twitch/spasms. I'm afraid that it could be something wrong with my spine.
Sometimes i feel like there's no way anxiety can do all of this to me, so my HA takes over and I dx myself with a million different illnesses.
Anyways maybe it is us over thinking and maybe our bodies are being overly sensitive. I just wanted to let you know that you are deff not alone. A good talk with my doctor usually sets me straight for a couple of weeks.
Sounds like anxiety because I have experienced the same thing. It's always best to rule out everything from your doctor but you can bet this sounds like anxiety. Did you go through any stressors before the panic attack? Do you have an anxious personality?
I have been doing better trying to get these anxiety feeling resolved but it's been a long road. I too had a panic attack at 19 and never bounced back to the old me. I get my anxiety ups and downs.
What did your panic attack feel like? Can you list all the symptoms during that time?
me too i feel like my brain is dying or something but my dr said its normal after losing my mom 3 years ago ive been really depressed and anxious i hate derealization it really is scary ;( do u feel it 24-7?
Thank you! Its good to know im not alone!! Do you suffer from depersonalization as well??
Ringing in ears weak legs fast heart beat stomach pain thought of dying
This happened twice too me but not recently now its just depersonalization do you suffer from this?
My condolences...
Yes for me it is 24/7
Im really scared its a brain problem! Like i said tho im 16 so iguess its not common but always possible! 😔
thank u . yeag im even afraid to go out thinking I'm gonna go crazy or lose it. do u have brain fog too?
Im not sure what that is so i dont think so
canrt think straight concentrate your brain dont feel right basically
Yeah maybe a bit then
My anxiety was extremely bad from April to August and I suffered from dp almost everyday. There are some days that it does creep up on me (usually the days when I have off from work, and im home alone).