HEALTH ANXIETY + TENSION HEADACHES Anxiety. 7am wake up, 1st thought, wow, I'm alive and didn't die

Mental health
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Anxiety.

7am wake up, 1st thought, wow, I'm alive and didn't die in my sleep. 2nd thought- I need to stop being so stupid in thinking I'm going to not wake up in the morning as I think like this every night, without fail, but still wake up because, I'm not dying, it's my anxiety. 3rd thought- I hope my anxiety's not going to be bad today.

Well... there we go I've just triggered it within seconds of waking up.

The thought of having a anxious day has just made my anxious day start.

so where do I go from here, 8am throats been closed for the past hour, breathing feels like I've got to control it otherwise il stop breathing, palpitations are slowly creeping in, random chest pains are coming and going every so often, hands are cold, head feels tight, arms randomly goes slightly numb on and off...

All with the above thoughts/feelings there's also the other thoughts

-I'm going to have a heart attack in a minute.

-why a few months ago did my anxiety go and now it's back again.

-shall i go to the doctors again and tell them to do another ecg as they must of got it wrong, I must have something wrong with my heart.

- how do I get these thoughts out my head.

- I don't want to die and leave 3 beautiful children and my partner behind.

- Seeing there faces just being told there mummy's died.

- Writing a text to my partner saying "I've fainted I'm at home help me" I don't send it I just leave it there ready to press send just in case.

- Teaching my children how to use my phone to call 999 and ask for help if I ever fall to he floor or if anyone every needs help.

- I don't want to take a deep breath in, in case I breath to hard and make a heart attack come on.

- My eyes sometimes blur or feel confused.

All of this and more, but this was today's feelings and thoughts on top of school runs, 3 children, a house to tidy, dinner to make, bottles to do, children to get to sleep. At not one point today have I not thought these thoughts and had these feeling, and guess what it all starts again tomorrow 😔

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When life become like this, then thats it, you need to take medication for your anxiety prescribed by a shrink.

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I've taken an anxiety tablet before, it worked for the 2 years that I was on it, then I came off when I had my 3rd child. I don't want to take any medication I want to see what else works that people have tried.

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Hi. It's terrifying and draining. Therapy will help. Talk to someone who can show you how to move your thoughts. I've recently became focused on death due to anxiety in menopause. I also obsess all day. I feel better after counselling and I have many more good days where I can realize they're only thoughts. You are busy and worn out and need someone to care about you for awhile. Caring for others so much wears us out and tires our minds. I can assure you it get better. Please keep writing how you feel. Getting it out is the best medicine.

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Thankyou for your reply!

I've been fine since I came off the tablets, obviously I've felt anxious but I've managed to cope with them and carry on. Then for the past 3 months something must of triggered it and it's back again with a vengeance! It doesn't help that all your hear on the news is death and there's been a lot of people dying locally to from car crashes etc, so all I feel like I've been seeing and hearing is about death. Il just walk in a shop and see he word cancer and feel like it was put there to tell me something, that I have it or something! Yet i try my hardest to act and think normally around my children so they don't feel my thoughts, which makes it really hard also.

I just carry on day to day, doing school runs, making dinner, tea and housework, along with everything but the whole while convincing myself I'm going to die. It's so tiring x

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Bless you Jade

I fully understand your thoughts and feelings it is so common with anxiety.

You may benefit by mindful meditation that helps you retrain your mind on how to deal with the thoughts to combat the physical symptoms that it kicks off.

Its hard to get your head round and took me a few attempts but once i started it in to practice... It actually works but you have to keep it up as the physical symptoms can linger after the mind clears.

I was preparing like you , making sure things were there in place in case what if!!

But the what if is what feeds the anxiety and until you change that thought pattern it will keep feeding the anxiety..

I researched some medical universities who deal with anxiety and it was so enlightening.

I watched a lot of their talks in bed at night on just how anxiety gets your thoughts into a cycle... There are plenty on the net.... earbuds in for me incase my partner thought i had really lost the plot..

But it changed my whole thinking pattern and it started working.

Work still in progress but sooo much better.

Good luck

Stay strong and end this cycle so you can enjoy life and your beautiful family again xx