Feeling so down again at the moment.My moods have been fluctuating over the past week. I get so angry with myself as my agitation makes me want to retreat from everyone and they want to help but I feel so overwhelmed by the tiniest thing.
I am finding it difficult to sleep as I have nightmares.
I am holding down my job but going through counselling for previous abuse issues.
I want to hide away as everything big or small Feels like the end of the world.
I am pushing people away because i am frightend i will break into a thousand pieces.
My nurse tells me to practice relaxation but I am so jumpy its hard to Focus.
Does anyone have any advice? I would really apreciate it
Jo
I learned that walking and cleaning house things to get rid of that nervous energy help me out a lot! 😄
Hi Krollette,
I have to say, I have similar issues. One thing I always forget to mention is my friggen nightmares. Which is crazy, because they're relentless. Also, I have had trouble in the past, when the attacks set in, to relax enough to meditate. I too am jumpy. Like, if I sit I will lose my mind, and then I get up to walk and I need to sit. I have little advice, but I just wanted to lend my support your way. I find avoiding any triggers helps with the nightmares, but my nightmares are brutal. They are vivid, and they seem to trigger the worse part of my brain, because I wake up right into panic. It's like my nghtmares taunt me with memories of loss. Not sure why I'd want to torture myself. It must come from lack of closure. Another thing I find helps me is to just find a person who takes my mind to a calmer, secure, trusting place. Sometimes strangers are the best for that, IMO. best wishes to you. Take care!
I have tried the walking and the house has never looked so organised. The wierd thing is the more physically tired I am the more mentally alert I am.
The nights just go on forever when I sleep I am dreaming horrible dark things from my past.
The counselling helps on a certain level but I dont want to live in my past or point fingers at people who cant change things now.
I have had periods feeling like this in the past so I know eventually things will pass. Its just feeling different to people and misunderstood.
Thanks Malary and Robert for your replies its nice to know there are people out there that understand.
Jo