How do i help myself

Mental health
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Hi there, honestly i have no idea why im here, i guess i just feel like this is a safe space where i could talk about my condition, in hope that there are some people who would understand.

Im a teenager, still in college and i stay with my family.

My family are nice people, i know they just want me to get better and stay positive 

But they never really try to approach me, the never really ask me why am i like this, they just assume its because of my studies 

At times when i get all moody and gloomy, they would ask me to snap out of it, and dont follow my emotions 

I know they only said those things for my own good

But do you know how sad it is, when none of your family members try to approach you or even try to understand how you feel

I also had tension headache, god knows how painful it felt like, how helpless do i feel, i feel like banging my head onto the wall because at times its just unbearable

Its just sad when some people think that im making things up, 

I wonder what is it on their mind, honestly though, what would i get from making things up? Its okay if you dont even bother to know how much am i suffering, but to even say that i am making it up? 

I am truly disappointed and i hate myself even more, i feel like everything im going through is too much

And its destroying my life 

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I totally get what you are saying familys tend not to think negative or dont know what to say to you. Or how to say it to you its why its hard for them to approach you. Im bi polar and depression with anxiety this site has alot of people here that understand what you are going  through. Have you thought about councling? Or going to ur family doctor to  talk with them on what you are going through??

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Hi athena00126 - sorry to read you are suffering. I have to disagree with you on one point - when family are telling you to "snap out of it" they are not doing it for your own good. They are doing it for themselves, to make their day more comfortable. You state they have never approached and asked about how you feel - I wonder if your family is like mine, where emotions are irrelevant, the family unit functions on appearances, not feelings, and that what others think when they see that family unit is more important than the mental health of those inside that family unit. In other words, a coat of paint over the cracks, all fresh and clean for everybody else. How about writing down what you feel? You can deliver it to your parents if that would help. The most important thing now is to get professional help - see you doctor and discuss what is happening and the fear it raises. The doc may prescribe medications - these are temporary and are to help balance your mood so you can tackle the required issues. Counselling may be recommended. You need to speak up and demand the attention.