I am so tired of the constant anxiety. I am so tired of being tired all the time. Of feeling like my entire body is humming. I see people around me laughing and enjoying life and I enjoy nothing, not even things that would normally bring joy. My psychiatrist and therapist has tried to help. We have tried new meds. We have tried different meds. We have tried more meds. Nothing works. I am afraid I will eventually totally lose my s**t and end up in a mental ward forever. I just can't take it any more. This has been going on for almost 3 years. How long is a person supposed to hold on to hope of a better tomorrow?
Im 36 and have been pretry bad since 11. I have multiple personality disorder also known as d.i.d. i have severe ptsd amd anxiety. Im on some meds and sometimes they help. I moved states and found a new doctor and therapist. They have had to admit me for auicidal reasons and self harm. One of my personalities tried jumping off a bridge in october of 2016. Luckily a cop caught us amd tackled us. I also just found out i have a heart condition that scares me even tho both my cardiologist and primary doctor say i wont die sometimes i feel like i should jusst end it. But i push on and try to live. I try to find things to keep me occupied. I.e work and will be headed to the gym to lose weight and make my heart stronger but you must not give up. People say it will get better and sometimes it does but you must have faith or something you belive in. Your not alone.
Hi the key is not to waite for tomorrow that's a mystery yesterday is history all we have is the moment what you do today will determine your tomorrow I get so much of what you our saying anxiety and panic attacks drove me to a mental hospital for 3mths I was a walking talking zombie no feeling no emotion just numb my answer was not in medication I tried that worked out for a little while but then I became addicted tried natural things now for me in the end the answer I was looking for was always there I just had to look s**t I am scaring my self that sounds like it makes sense honestly there is no secret here the mind is so powerful what you feed it grows feed it anxiety that's what you get feed it panic attacks that's what you get in the end it's up to you
Mimi
You have plenty people routing for you so all I can say is listen and be guided by their suggestions.
Why do you feel the way you do ?
BOB
I could have written this. Three years too and many different meds. All no use. Just feel down and agitated. How much patience do i need? Even p.doc is running out of ideas for me. Now tells me its anxiety and needs cbt, ive had 25 sessions, cost a fortune. Still no better. Push through the days. Is there nothing that will work. Like you petrified of being put in hospital. There are things out there but nhs doesnt use them -yet. Transcranial magnetic Stimulation, a new clinic in London and Birmingham open now, Australia running trials in conjunction with Oxford University on ketamine having good results. There is always hope but we cant find it.
Hi Bob,
I am just so very exhausted from having constant anxiety. I can't relax until I go to bed. It has been every day for almost 3 years. I stay so tensed up, it feels like my body is humming.
Hi I just saw your post. I am hoping you are feeling a little better. I had terrible anxiety 30 years ago and now it has come back with a vengeance. I wake up with it , I have terrible anxiety dreams. I am afraid to leave the house. The days are so long. I am too nervous to listen to music or watch TV. I am hoping the ANTIDEPRESSANT I am on is going to work. It is a never ending nightmare. I haven't been to to go to work and I haven't been able to watch my beautiful granddaughters. Life us such a gift and I feelI am wasting it Feeling like this every day... I am sending you a hug...
Hi Babss, Thank you for your kind words. I am feeling a little better, but I am beginning to wonder if I will ever be my old self again.
I am sorry you are suffering so. I wish I had some words of wisdom to help.
Sometimes, a new med can take up to 6 weeks to fully work. How long have you been on yours?
You mentioned not being able to listen to music. I am the same way. It began when the depression began. I think that is the strangest thing.
You are right in that life is a gift, but you are not wasting it. You have a medical condition that is taking your quality of life away from you. Life can be so unfair.
You mentioned you have granddaughters. I have a grandson. He is 14 months old and he is the light of my life. But when the anxiety is real bad, even he can not bring me out of the darkness.
I will pray for you and if you believe, then I ask that you would say a prayer for me as well. (((Hugs)))
Hi mimibrena, so nice to hear from you. My 4 year old and 2 year old granddaughters are as you said the lights of my life! I struggle to see them and always have anxiety when I am with them I don't get to really enjoy them. I am on surmontil it is week 6 but the Psychiatrist says it is not at a therapeutic level yet. I feel my anxiety is worse. My body feels heavy like I am wearing a suit of armor at times. I am never sleepy it tired or relaxed. Always ANXIETY is there to torture me. Even in my sleep I have horrible anxiety dreams. Are you on Medication? Are you afraid to leave your house? I pray for you and all of us who suffer from this terrible illness. You are right this anxiety has robbed us of our lives. I want mine back.
Hi Mimibrenda, just wondering how you are feeling today. I watched my angel granddaughter yesterday the whole day for the first time yesterday and had horrible anxiety the whole time but I felt so blessed to be with her. I have a very hard time leaving the house. How about you? I am never relaxed . The damn anxiety needles away at me all day. Do you leave the house? I just wish I could have one good day. I am sending you a hug and a prayer. I sure hope this damn ANTIDEPRESSANT works... I really don't want to spend one more day with this horrible illness..
Hi Mimibrenda, I am sending you a hug and wondering how you are doing. I saw my Psychiatrist today and he seemed Angry that I am not feeling relief yet on 75 mg surmontil. He said I am on alot of medicine right now and he might want to add celexa to the mix now. Oh my God what I wouldn't do for some relief...
Hi Babss, Maybe the Celexa would help. I know how you feel about wanting to feel better. I take 3 meds for anxiety and depression. The main one and newest one is Cymbalta. My psychiatrist has increased my dosage 3 times now. I have just started to feel different this week. I say different because I don't feel like my old self, but I am beginning to feel a little better. It has been 3 long years without any relief, so I am afraid to get my hopes up. I pray you get some relief soon. Keep trying. Have you got any holiday plans? I try no to plan too much because of my anxiety. Me and crowds do not mix. (((Hugs back at ya)))
Hi Mimibrenda, so nice to hear from you. I am so happy that you are feeling a little better. I have that horrible agoraphobia but I am pushing myself to go out. We are supposed to spend Xmas Eve at my sister's Beautiful home like every year. I am going to try to make it. I hate this horrible illness. I might give the celexa a try but I think after Xmas. What plans do you have for Xmas?
Hi Babss, I am so sorry about that you are having a hard time getting out of the house. I have a hard time to some extent. I can go to work, but I do not want to go anywhere else. I like work. It helps me to not be so anxious. I am spending Christmas with my family. I am 55, but I live with my parents. When my illness got so bad I decided to sell my house and come live with them. My Mom is a huge help with my illness. My brother and sister live close by. We will all get together with children and grandchildren. There will be about 20 of us. We will get together on Christmas Eve. We will have dinner and exchange gifts.
Hi Mimibrenda, thank God for your Mom. I am 62 years old and I had this dreadful illness 30 years ago thoughit is much worse now. Your Xmas sounds wonderful. I have too much anxiety at home to have anyone come over. I would rather push myself to go out even if it is just for an hour. Too bad you had to sell your house, terrible illness. Do you work far from home? What is your occupation? I am a manager for copies of real jewelry in Manhattan so it is quite a trek to get into work every day so that is why I have stopped working but I want to get better and go back to work and do everything I did before... God help us and all who suffer from this terrible illness...
Yea, I miss my house, but it was not emotionally safe for me to be alone. It must be so disappointing for the anxiety to come back after all this time. I live in the country. Where I work is in the country also. I live about 6 miles from work. I do not go through any traffic lights or anything like that. My commute is 12 to 15 minutes. Where I work is picturesque. There are pastures and rolling hills all around. In the pastures, there are cows. Unfortunately, my office does not have a window, but it is a nice drive in to work. What do you mean by "copies of real jewelry"? I pray you get better soon and get your life back. You are right. This is a miserable illness. One that most people do not understand.
Hi Mimibrenda, my goodness it sounds beautiful where Yu live and work. Do you really feel better at work or dies it just help the time to pass faster. I went into Manhattan again yesterday and visited the store. I felt very weird there yet comfortable. The days are so long with this horrible illness needling away at me. I really think I am going to stay like this forever. The Psychiatrist seems so frustrated that I don't feel relief. But I don't. It's like living every day with pain but it's not pain it is anxiety. You are in my prayers dear friend. The company I work for kind of copies very expensive jewelry like Tiffany or Cartier and then people buy it and sometimes mix ii with the real.How are you doing today?
Okay hear me out and you might have done this already... but I’m getting it done because I guess there’s a connection between anxiety and our thyroids and people often get misdiagnosed. I’m not sure but I’m going to get mine checked because I can’t live like this anymore. You should research the connections because there are a lot of stories relating.
Hi Jessica you are so right about the thyroid but I have had mine checked. I have anxiety really really horrible anxiety and it is keeping me from having a normal life...
I was reading articles that you have to really find someone who knows what their doing or they won’t be accurate or something like that? They don’t take it seriously but I guess it’s a pretty big deal and a lot of people are misdiagnosed with anxiety, ocd, bipolar, because it comes with the same mental symptoms. So you have go find a really good endocrinologist.