Je meurs

Never had any problem with my stomach before.

Then (19M) I moved and lived alone for a year. Because I was young and I didn’t know how to cook, I ended up eating only fast food: pizza and ready meals. At one point I was eating pizza for breakfast, pizza for lunch, pizza for dinner. Literally. For more than 1-2 month just pizza. I knew it is bad but I simply didn’t care.

At the end of that year my stomach was destroyed. Pain, chronic diarrhea (25-30 times a day) and so much gas.

After 2 years (22M) of ‘normal’ food my symptoms changed to 8-10 bowel movements a day (mainly diarrhea), pain but only after a bowel movement, constipation.
After these 2 years I decided to see a GP. Done some tests (blood, poo and pee) but everything came positive. He sent me home and told me to take loperamide.

Then I started to try: peppermint (oil capsule, tea), psyllium husk, probiotics, low foodmap.
None worked.
I ended up at A&E twice, they sent me home after the blood test came out positive.

Now I’m staying alone and suffering, I just don’t know what to do. My GP told me he just can’t help me as long as my tests are positive.
My stomach made my depression worse and I developed anxiety. And 2 jobs lost.

Maybe I’m too sensitive and weak but recently I started thinking at suicide seriously. I just can’t live like this anymore…