So what happened is that people in my grade tried talking to me and making friends with me when I was younger, but I'm really weird and socially awkward, so I give off this really weird vibe that makes them think that I don't like them. Now I have the same classes with all these people and they obviously don't like me cause I'm so weird and indifferent. I just hate myself so much no one likes me at all and they all think I'm so weird and I always say the wrong thing when teachers pick on me and in general everyone finds me really cringe-worthy and disgusting. I hate myself so much and I just don't want to live anymore. I'm so disgusting I deserve hell. Even my own parents have told me that I'm a useless, worthless piece of s**t, and it's not like they're just saying that cause they're stressed out and taking their anger out on me, but I'm literal s**t. I suck at everything and I'm so weird and autistic that no one likes me. I just don't know why I should keep living anymore. I just can't find anything at all to live for. Sorry for the long rant. I would appreciate any help.
Hello there my name is Diane. So very glad that you have reached out to us we all understand how it feels to get very down and even down on ourselves. I do! You are young I remember when I was in high school I felt so akward and different than all but one friend and thankfully I had her. Other than that I pulled deep inside but I got through it and made it. Things got better as I got older. Have you ever seen a counselor? Have you ever mentioned to your parents that you think it might be a good idea if you had someone professional to speak to of your own? Will you give that some thought? So will you keep us posted? We will watch for your response. I will. Diane
Hi Diane,
Thank you for responding. I will try talking to my parents;
Hey thanks for getting back I'm so glad that you are going to talk to your parents but will you keep us posted and keep talking to us in the mean time? Diane
Yes of course. You're a really good person for taking time out of your day to help strangers on the internet.
Hi try not to jump to conclusions about people and think you can know what they are thinking or feeling. The only way you would know for sure is asking them. I always find if you look interested in people you don't have to say anything and a smile goes a long way. You are overthinking things too much. x
Thank you for your advice. I'll try to follow it 
Thank you but I just know how it feels to need help myself. I enjoy giving back. How are you now? Diane
Hypercat is right 🙂 I remember when i was in school, i thought i was the best body language/facial expression reader in the world bar none, i thought people had all sorts of terrible opinions of me. But it was only after school, particularly when i saw a therapist, that i learnt that this is one of the symptoms of depression: "mind-reading". You think people are thinking all sorts of things, but usually theyre either not thinking about anything to do with you, or its not something negative about you! You project your own feelings about yourself onto other people.
I understand the overthinking thing as well, again a symptom of depression "ruminating". Its hard to get out of that habit, but seeing a therapist can really help understand why you think like that and to get out of it 💚
That's really interesting. Thank you for telling me about it.
I'm feeling better, thanks for asking.
Good morning that is very good news. Are you doing anything different? Diane
Boy can I identify with what Thurman said! He is a pretty smart guy. Sounds like he's speaking from experience. Counseling has saved me! Diane
*girl haha, but thanks Diane!
I hope it's helpful in some way to you. Its not easy to convince yourself that your thoughts right now arent true, but honestly: thoughts ARENT facts. X
Hi can I hit you with something kinda heavy at least it was for me when I first heard it? You know how a projection screen works? Well when I am in a deep depression I say negative things to myself about myself. Like you are not a very good person you should be more giving or a better friend. Those are a few examples I say them to myself even if they aren't true I really believe them. Then I (like a projector) start thinking other people are thinking those things about me too. Even though I have NO idea what they are thinking. Why don't I know what they are thinking? I flunked all my mind reading classes😊. Does any of this make sense? May be too heavy if so I apologize. Diane
No that's not too heavy at all and it's a really good way to look at it. Thanks for sharing this with me 
Not really, but I am feeling better. Thanks for asking.
Oh good glad that it made sense to you. It has really helped me😊! Diane
Hey how is your Sunday going? I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are. Hope all is well!! Diane