Incontinence after botox and fissurectomy

I am still incontinent over 4 months after having botox and fissurectomy. I can no longer leave the house. I can’t live my life. I have a check up next month but no one is telling me why I’m still incontinent, what could possibly have gone wrong, and if the incontinence after botox/fissurectomy is ever permanent, and if it is, for what reason?

Feel like ending it all to be honest. Please don’t get this procedure in case everyone :frowning: