I started my sertraline at 50mg dose and took that for 27 days , felt really low and down scared anxious etc , first it was for relationship OCD as I was getting lots of guilt and and bad thoughts about my relationship even tho i love her to bits and want to be with her then then when my lavish started to go by the 2 week mark I was suffering with intrusive thoughts panicking thinking it was never gonna come back and I would never be attracted to girls again and thought I was going to become a weirdo and I was getting a lot of suicide thoughts , was considering stopping but kept going then around day 22 on sertraline I had 4 better days and thought I was on the up but then went back to square one and went down hill again got really ill again as I was filling out my form for counselling and one of the questions was "do you ever get thoughts of violence to other people " which I never used to then my mind got stuck to it and I panicked got scared and now I can't get it out of my head and I'm scared to be around my love and it's like what ever is in me is trying to pull me away from my love and all the horrible intrusive thoughts are killing me keep thinking I'm gonna become a lunatic and lose my mind , on day 27 I moved dose up to 100mg and I'm on day 4 on 100 mg and feel terrible down and depressed , scared and hopeless , literally don't know if I can cope anymore I know I suffer with obsessive thoughts but evil ones like this scare me to much and make me feel terrible , what do I do ? So scared I need help 😞 Lost hope feels like I can't never be happy again it's tearing my relationship apart I just want to be my old self I've never been violent in my life , sertraline making me easy annoyed to , Someone please reply with your experiences and advice , I just want to run and disappear , one love ❤️
J'avais vraiment peur d'être avec mon partenaire quand j'ai commencé le citalopram (un autre ISRS) car parfois j'avais peur qu'il me blesse et parfois que j'avais peur de lui faire du mal. Nous n'avons pas une relation violente et je n'ai jamais été, j'étais juste si effrayée de tout et avais des pensées vraiment bizarres et sans sens. Devenais aussi très irritable rapidement. Le truc c'est que je savais que c'étaient des effets secondaires et que ce n'était pas vraiment moi alors il faut juste se mettre dans cet état d'esprit et laisser passer. Assure-toi que ton partenaire est au courant de ce qui se passe et de te laisser de l'espace quand tu en as besoin si tu deviens en colère. Ça va se calmer tu es encore très tôt dans le traitement. Ne sois pas trop dur avec toi-même c'est un médicament puissant qui bouscule ton cerveau.
Thank you Lara I'm just in bits 😞 Literally want to take my life I can't take much more it just feels like I can't love anymore , I don't know what to do to convince my brain that it's all nonsense , it's making me think I want to become a bad person , how long was you taking it before things started to ease and calm down
C'était constant et mauvais pendant environ une semaine, puis après cela, j'ai eu de bons jours et de mauvais jours. Je dirais environ un mois. Parlez à votre médecin et soyez vraiment honnête sur tout ce que vous ressentez. Il pourrait être bon idée d'obtenir une ordonnance pour du diazépam ou quelque chose de similaire pour vous calmer quand cela devient trop intense. Cela m'a vraiment aidé à traverser les premières étapes. Parfois, juste pour bien dormir et cela fait vraiment une différence sur votre humeur le lendemain. S'il vous plaît, ne baissez pas les bras. Continuez à vous battre, cela ira mieux.
I got diazepam but don't want to take it but will if I have to like I should now tbh , do you have any side affects off diazepam? X
Non, cela ralentit simplement tout, arrête une crise de panique et vous fait sentir détendu. Les premières fois que vous le prenez, vous aurez probablement des fous rires et vous sentirez un peu ridicule, mais c'est tout. C'est comme s'il était impossible d'entrer en panique avec ça. Ils n'aiment pas le prescrire à long terme car cela peut devenir addictif, donc je ne l'utilise que lorsque je suis au plus bas. C'est aussi agréable de savoir qu'il est là pour vous calmer si cela devient trop grave, donc même sans le prendre, cela aide à l'anxiété de penser que vous allez perdre le contrôle. Il n'y a pas d'effets secondaires effrayants comme avec un ISRS, c'est très sûr.
Hi Donmate. The level of anxiety you're experiencing will be having a huge impact on your body just now. If your Dr has prescribed Diazepam then take it. It will make you feel a bit "spaced out" but it will help to give your body a rest. I experienced something similar to what you described and I really struggled too. But, you WILL get through this. A few years after my anxiety/depression similar to yours, I read a book called "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff". It really helped me put everything I had been thinking into perspective and they are only just thoughts - they're not real. You're not alone, keep taking the Sertraline and seek counselling if you can. I am recently back on Sertraline because I felt a bit overwhelmed with bereavement - I have been meditating every morning and I swear it is helping. I have never been a believer in meditation but I have stuck with it for a few weeks now and along with the meds, is taking me away from my dark place. I hope this helps you - much love ❤️
Thank you for your reply kebem did you suffer with intrusive thoughts like mine ? , how did you cope with your thoughts? What's the best way like what techniques do you use ? Like I'm scared I'm gonna turn into a lunatic and hurt someone 😞 Then I say to myself why am I thinking this I just be bad and stuff also suicide thoughts to , ❤️️
Hi Donmate - yes I suffered intrusive and obsessive thoughts. At first, it was what you describe and associated with my relationship. I had thoughts like "do I love him" which really scared me - of course I did! But why was I thinking this?! I freaked out and had full blown panic attacks. My life at that time was very stressful - my father was very ill and I was young and at university, my mum was stressed and my life line was my boyfriend. He was my rock - so those thoughts made me absolutely terrified. I was ill for a good couple of months - having horrible thoughts of running away and wanting to hide. I saw a psychologist during this episode who put a lot of things into perspective for me. He described my life as a jar, full of marbles (representing big stressful events) and I just kept on taking these stresses on and not dealing with them. Then one day my "jar" was so full, and that one last thought made it shatter and I entered into severe anxiety and depression. It took me months to realise that it was not the thoughts which made me feel this way - it was the building pressures in my life, which I just thought were part of life. I am happy to say that I am now married to my boyfriend, we have been together for 15 years now and that happened when I was a year to 2 years into the relationship. When these thoughts enter your head, tell them to "bring it on"...see what the worst is that can happen. They are only thoughts, they are not real. Look up meditation online. There's evidence to suggest you can change your brain makeup by using these techniques - in that the stress parts of your brain can reduce in size. Regarding th suicidal thoughts, this will not solve anything. You have family and friends to love you. Please ignore those thoughts. If you can get hold of that book I told you about, i am sure it will help. Please let me know if you need anything else ❤️
You are amazing onestly thank you so true in what you say I've had a lot of stress this year and I think it's been a massive build up and then I finally crack ! Really appreciate this thank you ❤️️
I am so pleased that you can relate - you're very welcome and I hope you get through this soon! Just remember what I said 😊 All the best Donmate ❤️
One love kebeb ! Hope you and your partner are well and have a great future ❤️️🙌🏼
Thank you 😊 Same back to you ❤️❤️