It's been over 4 months since my anxiety came back to me worse than ever. I have suffered through several emotional changes. Sometimes i cry without any reasons, sometimes i feel hopeless ,worthless. Sometimes i'm confused and don't really know what i am doing is right or wrong. Sometimes i believe that i am going to be crazy and end up hurting me and people with my full intrusive thoughts. What worse is that i don't know when and how i end up being obsessed with me having cancers, even when it just a small symptom , i'm easily startled and having panic attack just because of it. I have gone to several hospital and have spent a lot of money to check on my health, which all of the tests turned out to be normal or just that i had some problems with my health but not as severe as i thought. My family thought i was crazy, they said that i'm obsessed with being sick. And today i have my mole biopsied and have to pay for a lot of money. Which i immediately regret right after doing that. Anxiety tortures me,makes me worried nonstop about everything, i lose a lot of money for all the medications, and immediately regret right after that, and then it just keeps torturing me because of that. I have told my mother that i have anxiety disorder. And she just neglected that like it was not something important and also my family. I don't really know what i should do right now. It just seems like everyday has passed, i lose a bit of my sanity.
im sorry to hear how much your suffering hun!! big hugs to you. please know you are not alone and the best thing you can do is talk and open up about how you feel. anxiety is evil! it controls you and wares you down. how long you had anxiety for? have you spoke to professionals about how yout truly feeling? ive had anxiety since the age of around 7…i was never diagnosed back then as i didnt even know what it was. i had a little troubled childhood with abit of violence so i never had anyone to truly talk to. this contributed. my confidence never existed growing up and i just thought i was ‘weird’. im not 30 and i only realised a couple of years ago that it was anxiety that i was fighting with. its a daily battle with your mind and its horrible. health anxiety takes over my life on a daily basis. but please know you are not alone. best thing you can do is talk! i never did for so long and it ate me up inside. xx
Anxiety is an abnormal physical response to a real condition of stress. To ‘get over it’ you need to understand why you react that way to stressful conditions. Therapy is the only way to understand why you react the way you do and it will take time, but the payoff is worth it.
Until we understand and can deal with the root cause of our anxiety we try and ‘get by’ by using coping skills. Medication, diet, rest/sleep, exercise are all things we can fall back on to help us make it through. We need to take care of our body to assure it has the strength to deal with our anxiety, which sucks up great quantities of energy.
Most important-hopefully you have a network of friends and family who accept you have an emotional health issue and have patience to help you get through the episodes. Knowing more folks who suffer from Health Anxiety would be a great help to you right now, talking regularly with people who suffer the same affliction. If there is a Discussion Group in your area it would be very beneficial to join it and commiserate with others. Good luck!