Hi, ive had anxiety with depression for a while now. I was put on sertaline and it was uped to 100mg, but since then i took myself off thinking i was recovering to go back to how i was so i have put myself back on them at 50mg a day. Im having more persistent bouts of depressive episodes and to be quite honest its terrifying. I dont wish to harm myself but i wouldnt care if i got hurt/died and i dont wish to have these feelings. I have looked into CBT but i just cant see it getting any better (rationally it probably would, i know thats my mental health kicking in there). Im trying to start relationships but every time my moods kick in they scare people, i go days without eating, i dont sleep, im constantly in the fear im having a heart attack. I have had ECG's that say nothing is happening, but i dont believe it.
My concern is, my mental health is getting worse, i dont like seeing the doctors because all they do is discuss medication, i appreciate it works for some, and has been somewhat beneficial for me, but i do not wish to live my life medicated. Sounds stupid, but i feel weak for needing tablets to live my everyday life, when people worse off just get through. I have spoken to friends and family but they cant understand why i think the way i do, and so tell me to just relax. We all know being told that is by far the most irritating thing ever. Any advice from people who have gone through this would be much appreciated. I dont want to feel alone anymore. Thank you.
Hi AE10, dont be so hard on yourself, just step back and take a look at yourself and think how you felt when you took 100mg sertraline, I understand that you dont like going to the doctors or having to take medication but honestly depression is a illness and like other people who are ill they have to take medication to make them better, so for you to get back to how you used to be for a short time you need the medication, hopefully when you are really feeling better you can come off the meds with the doctors help, they say you should never come off them without supervision so I know you wont like what I have put but please for your own sake go back to the 100mgs and give yourself time. Taking meds for a illness is nothing to be ashamed about also depression, anixety etc is not either, these days they say 7 out 10 people will have some sort of depression in there lives, so for now its your turn, it dont mean that it will stay with you for ever, it just means that you are poorly and need meds.
Im really sorry to read what you have put about yourself and taking meds but please just take them for a short while longer and hopefully you will see why you got depressed in the first place and then be able to get your life back to normal. I wish you luck.
Hi. I understand exactly where you are coming from. I used to be a really strong person outwardly but inwardly I was a mess. Things happen in your life that you have no control over and these things can really have a huge impact on you as a person. There is no point my going into what caused me to be on medication but I have been for approx 14 years now. I too would love to come off then because I feel weak like you having to take them but I have learnt that you just have to accept it and keep telling yourself that if this is what I need to be able to cope with my mental health abd day to day living as it is now then so be it.
Stop beating yourself up about it. Try and accept that you are an OK person in need of medication to help you get by. Don't think about why you need them just try to accept it. That way it is one less thing to worry about. Live your life on your terms not how others expect you to live it. I have learnt to do this, I don't like it, but that is how it is.
Don't pressure yourself one day things could change and if they do then it's a bonus!!
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