I'm 24 years old, I've had a tough last few years including a miscarriage and break down in my relationship. I was abused when I was 13 years old by a relative. At the beginning of the year I spoke about it and was referred to a mental health specialist but when it came to it I couldn't go and I lied to my mum and said I went. I met a friend who I became really close with, he took my mind off everything and I finally thought I was becoming 'normal' again. A few weeks ago we had a fall out and things haven't been the same since. I feel lost on my own and I'm struggling to sleep and eat, I'm scared to get help because I turned it down in the past. Every night I wake up and just sit and think about ways to end my life without causing too much hurt to my family. How do I stop feeling like this? And make the voices in my head telling me I'm worthless and a freak go away?
Hola
Lamento mucho lo que has pasado.
¿Considerarías volver a ver al terapeuta? Están ahí para ayudar... Sé que no es fácil en absoluto, especialmente la primera vez.
No puedo decir lo que te pasó, pero pasé por algo muy traumático y me arruinó la vida. Me deprimí mucho y realmente no estaba en un buen lugar. Le conté a mi médico general lo que había sucedido y me derivó urgentemente a un terapeuta. Las primeras 3 veces no pude hablar porque era demasiado, pero está bien, ellos entienden. Después de eso, hice progresos. Todavía sé que pasó, pero ahora puedo pensar en diferentes formas de lidiar con ello, por ejemplo, cuando lo pienso.
Por favor, no tengas miedo de pedir ayuda de nuevo. Ellos entenderán completamente. Puede ser que alguna medicación te ayude en este momento para sentirte mejor.
¿Tienes otros amigos con los que puedas hablar?
¿Hablarías con tu mamá sobre lo mal que te sientes?
Dices que piensas en terminar con tu vida...
Esto no desaparecerá. Realmente necesitas hablar con alguien y tomar alguna medicación para ayudarte, ya que a menudo, cuando alguien piensa en quitarse la vida, a veces lo hace si se siente muy mal. No siempre quieren hacerlo, pero lo ven como una escapatoria.
Estoy aquí si quieres hablar, puedes enviarme un mensaje privado o podemos chatear aquí.
Hola Sally,
Por favor, busca ayuda de inmediato. Los profesionales de la salud mental entenderán y te ayudarán. No es tu culpa. Te sientes sola y asustada, pero no te rindas contigo misma. Pide la ayuda que necesitas. Sigue hablando en este sitio también. Todos entendemos y escucharemos y ayudaremos cuando sea posible. Por favor, háznos saber cómo estás. Te mereces ser feliz y tienes la mayor parte de tu vida por delante.
Mucha suerte,
Phyl
Hello sally I do feel for you , and empathise with you as well , if you can go back to docs and try and get some more support as you need don't worry you turned it down the first time at least you notice you need some help and you are aware of it the first step to recovery, I feel is when you no you need help ,you won't get better over night but just take that step if you can , having a friend helped you in the beginning but when you had a little falling out it highlighted all the pain you have been going through which you probably buried ,I have had similar problems and it has taken me a while to get back on track , and ocasionaly I fall of track but always try to get back on . I am always trying it don't matter how slow things take just try not to stop trying , watch what you eat , try to exercise daily also I went on a introduction to counselling course which helped me a lot with my anxieties and also had made me aware of a lot of things , try not to worry about what your mum thinks we try to obey our parents but sometimes we can't try and think of you take small steps and j hope things improve take care luvly you have had a los it's normal to feel sad don't beat yourself up be kind to your self as you are worth it 🎈
Thank you, I managed to get a few hours sleep and still feel no better this morning, I am going to speak to my mum this morning and see if she can help me get the help I need, I decided to write it all down how I was feeling as I struggle to talk about it. I can't help but think that at 24 I'm the only person going through this and that it's not a normal thing. Im scared to see anyone about it because I worry I won't be able to talk about it with out just getting upset, I've never been good at talking about how I feel at the best of times. Hopefully my GP will refer me to someone that can help me.
you have to learn how to handle the feelings and never ever act on them,lifes hard alot of the times but each thing that happens makes us that little bit stronger even tho it dosent seem it yet,KEEP FIGHTING THE FIGHT AND STAY STRONG MY FRIEND
Sally
Talk to your GP again and explain why you did not attend your course of treatment.
Explain you will now attend as you wish to put your past fears at rest and continue on with your Life Choices.
Make that important appointment with your GP ASAP.
Suicide is not a way to solve your problems I know as I tried that pathway years ago.
If you feel at risk talk to your GP, it would be a good idea to tell him when you attend Your Appointment. Make a list of things you need to talk about, this will stop you forgetting any problems you have. If you feel you need longer than one appointment you can ask for a double length appointment to give yourself time with your GP.
Also if you are feeling you want to nd your life and unable to see your GP phone NHS Helpline and explain your fears.
Sometimes Samaritans may be an idea although A and E at your local hospital may be another idea
Keep a hold
BOB
Hi Sally - sorry to read of your situation. The first thing is to realise you are not alone. The second thing is to arrange that appointment with yor doctor - and keep it. When there, be totally open and honest about your problem. The doctor will have heard similar stories before and is not there to judge you. You should be offered a referral to a psychologist and perhaps a psychiatrist. Medications may be prescribed and it's important thst you take as directed and do not miss doses (forgetting one dose is not cause for panic, but when feeling better don't suddenly ditch the program.) Likewise, you should attend those appointments and be totally open and honest with them. They are there to help you - and they can if you let them.
There is no such thing as brave and coping when dealing with the unseen enemy - you need a support structure which will help you deal with triggers for your illness, and teach you coping skills when confronted with them. Suicide may seem a sweet relief for the immediate problems, but such an act will cause a life time of suffering for those who are left. They will always wonder what they could have said/done that might have changed the dynamic. Suicide will also remove the opportunity you have to deal with these important issues that have shaped who you are.
You are not worthless. You are not a freak. You are ill - an illness that has developed as you physically survived abuse, a miscarriage and broken relationships, but which has mentally scarred you. At 24 with your whole life ahead, it's time to reveal those wounds to the light where they can be seen and healed. It won't be a walk in the park, but it will create a stronger, wiser, more confident you. It is a gift you can give yourself. Hang in there and make that appointment - we are always here to talk to.
Tu respuesta a Sally fue exacta. Todo lo que dijiste resonó en mí y espero que Sally lo lea y lo tome en serio. He estado muy bien con las medicinas desde el verano pasado, pero aún encuentro este sitio un lugar maravilloso para comunicarme con otros que entienden la depresión y lo destructiva que puede ser en la vida diaria, y me hace sentir conectado con otros que han compartido experiencias similares.