So I’ve been having really intrusive thoughts and it scares me to the point that I was afraid I wouldn’t have control and act on them and that scared me more because I’m not that person.... or I was thinking someone was going to do something bad to me like attack me... it’s not as bad as it used to be since starting medication I’m just questioning why I had those terrible thoughts and if I’m a terrible person...
Also I’ve never felt like this before my whole life I’m 21 and confused because I’ve never thought like this... I feel like a terrible person
Hi Jess, You are not a terrible person. Mental illness is not something we choose to have. If you are having thoughts about harming yourself or someone else, you need to talk to someone right away.
Hey Jess! I’m 23 and have had violent and awful intrusive thoughts in episodes and am currently having it. We’re not bad or crazy or anything. Everyone has intrusive thoughts at some point. What they think happens in the cognition of people with OCD is that these thoughts are flagged as ultra important. Once that happens, the brain knows they’re “dangerous” so of course we keep thinking of them over and over. Like if someone told you not to think about a giant pink elephant, your brain would probably do it anyway. It’s s****y that it happens, but it’s just our brains being silly.
Well I finally went and talked to someone and they put me on medication... it’s just before I start my period it gets worse and I start questioning myself. Again it’s not as terrible but I feel like I’ve never suffered from anything like this and the past couple of months it’s been non stop. But why? Can this happen this far in life? Bad panic attacks too when I do have those thoughts.
It’s awful and it always happens two weeks before my period. And then isn’t as severe but my anxiety goes up and I start not sleeping and having panic attacks and I just hate it. I’m scared to do anything
And also when it started a couple months ago it first started with ....”what happens when I die?” “How can someone just be gone?” “Am I real?” “People look different” and then it got way worse my
Thoughts turned scarier and scarier and it was like hell in my mind.
You are not a bad person jess. I think it was Daniel who explained it really well that bacause you are here saying you hate these feelings and you know they are wrong this means you don't want to act on them you just don't know where these thoughts come from or why you are having them. If you weren't worried about these thoughts and thought they were normal it would be wrong. Lots of people have intrusive thoughts or thoughts they feel bad about, don't beat yourself up. Glad you are talking about it, can you ask for any type of counciling, it would be really reasuring for you to understand them more and realise it's more common than you think. Anxiety can control our thoughts , give us physical symptoms and convince us of anything. You're not alone jess😊❤️
Thank you for the kind words, I’m needing reassurance because I’ve always been a happy outgoing person who felt I had to be in control. But now that I’ve been having such a hard time it’s probably the scariest plus depersonalization and being so tense even when I feel like I’m relaxed. ugh just want to be normal. Sometimes I feel like giving up but I don’t want to