Hi everyone. It's been quite some time since my last post, as my anxiety seemed to subside, not comepletely, but it was bareable for a while. The past two weeks have been hell, for the lack of a better word. I've had three panic attacks in which I didn't have the typical pounding heart and shortness of breath. It was like I went numb all over. My head ached, my legs felt like jello, I had brain fog, and I felt like I was going to vomit. My first question is, have any of you had an attack like this one?
During these past two weeks, I've had a constant headache. Some of the aches were sharp, and my scalp felt tender, and some of them were also tension headaches (those I know all too well). I've also felt dizzy, like I could pass out at any second. I didn't, of course. I then googled my symptoms, which I know is a big "no no," but I did it. I convinced myself I either had a brain aneurysm, MS, or a brain tumor.
A little back story on me is that I've had countless ECGs, an echocardiogram, a stress test, blood work, and a 24 hour holter monitor text. I used to think I had heart issues, but all of that came back normal. I also had an extensive eye exam with a field test because of my headaches and the result was "no sign of neurological defect." So, thank God, everything was normal. Still, I find myself obsessing over my health, and convincing myself that something is seriously wrong with my brain. I have muscle spasms and twitching, and almost constant brain fog.
Three years ago, my husband passed away. I had to give him CPR and all of that until the ambulance arrived. My symptoms started out of no where right at a year after that happened, and I can't seem to shake them. I find myself thinking constantly, about everything, and I'm so fearful that if something is wrong, I won't get to watch our son grow up. Does anyone else feel this way? Is this anxiety? Or is it something more?