Hi
This is the first step to maybe accepting that I may be depressed/bipolar. Im not sure why but I find it difficult to talk to even my close friends or family in fear of them not understanding.
Im a 28 year old male with a good job, roof over my head and in a steady relationship for over 10 years. On the surface I have no reason to think I have an illness but for well over a year now maybe two I cant shake this uneasy, anxious feeling that looms over me then disappears in cycles.
Some days I feel good and have no issues. Life seems on the up then one day I can wake up with bad anxiety, irritability and general lack of energy for everyday tasks. I get knots in my stomach like im guilty of something when nothing has happened. I am usually quite thick skinned but when I am in this mood everything overwhelms me and I think the worlds against me and get upset over the smallest silliest things. I have also been told I have a short fuse and get angry really quickly. These feelings last for a few days then will subside. This has been going on for a while now.
I never really thought I had a problem and always to scared to go the doctors so this is the first time ive expressed myself to maybe get a better understanding from others who are feeling the same way.
I feel like I have so much more feelings and things to let go off in this post but maybe for now this is a good start.
Thanks for listening and any advice is appreciated.
Hi Mike is there a pattern to these episodes, eg extra stress at work? It does sound like anxiety and mind deoression but I'm no dr. If you go to your GP just tell s/he what's been happening and take it from there. It does seem strange that it comes and goes.
Neil
I cant really pinpoint a pattern. Just that some times they go and I feel positive again then some days it just sets off and I get the feelings mentioned above.
Ive felt like this for years now on and off. I feel like ive got years of anger and sadness just waiting to cry out of me but I just cant let go. Ive always been told by my gf that Im like a rock sometimes when it comes to emotions. Maybe I hold my emotions in too much and they are bursting to be released.
On another note when I felt like this 2 years ago I had been out drinking I got into a argument with a friend then when I got home I just burst out crying in a way I had never done in my life and I felt great after it. My I need to let go again! Ha
First thing i would say is, none of your symptoms sound in any way like bipolar, so i would discount that. Another, try to not self diagnose, theres nothing a Dr hates more than someone coming in who has convinced themselves they have specific issues - it makes a proper diagnosis a lot harder. Seeing a dr is the easy, part, just tell them how things are - leaving out what you may think the issue is, be honest with them, dont embelish ever and they will do their best to help you
Hi Mike
I'm so sorry that you are experiencing this. Depression is awful and anxiety is pure hell.
I think a visit to your doctor is a very good place to start in dealing with your negative thoughts and emotions. If you find it difficult to get the words out, you could try writing it down (copy this post out if necessary) and ask your doctor to read it. I have done this in the past and my doctor was brilliant.
In the meantime, try to write stuff down, keep a mood diary. It may help to pinpoint if there is a pattern or certain triggers that can start the cycle.
It's very easy to let your mind run away with it and self diagnose. It's probably far to early to start thinking about bipolar and worrying about possible diagnoses can in itself be a trigger.
Good luck and keep us posted on how you get on.
Hola Mike
Creo que no es depresión aún, pero quizá podrías beneficiarte de ver a un consejero de ansiedad. No te sientas avergonzado de hablar con tu médico de cabecera y, quizá cuando reserves cita, explica que podrías necesitar más de 10 minutos. Pero no dejes que esto pase. Yo me jubilé temprano y finalmente he empezado terapia para abordar mis miedos e inseguridades. ¡Mucha suerte y nunca te sientas culpable! Eso fue lo que me frenó a la hora de acercarme a mi médico de cabecera, eso y trabajar en el trabajo social arreglando los problemas de todos menos los míos.
Thanks all for your imput. Like I said ive barely scratched the surface in telling all my feelings but feel this is a good start. Maybe I need to take the next step and go see my gp to get a better understanding.
Sí, por favor hazlo, Mike, y avísame cómo te va