Please no "your family will miss you" or "it's selfish" bullsh#t. Im looking for a ligitimate reason.
Thanks.
Because LIFE is a GIFT ! Ask anyone who has survives serious illness or a war?
plz remember that this will pass and seek help counseling .
Yes life may be a gift. And I've known ppl who have survived serious illness.
I just don't deserve this gift.
Counseling hasn't done anything just cause more anxiety.
Medication doesn't do much either.
I'm completely useless and pathetic.
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Will if I started telling my life story it would take a lifetime. I can honestly say I couldn’t feel any worse than I do right now but what choice is there really? Suicide devastates lives and believe me I’ve witnessed this first hand. Medication and counselling help but they don’t cure. The only way to get through this is to talk and keep talking. As my other half reminded me just yesterday nothing positive ever comes out of your mouth! Depression is so much more than not being positive it’s a bloody cancer of the mind x
I feel like everyone's reasons will be different & specific to them & their lives so others can't tell you why. You listed a legitimate reason already, I'm sure you love your family & don't want to destroy their lives as well as your own. You should stop looking for a reason to live & use that energy to focus on trying everything possible to change how you feel.
Hi Will I am so sorry that you are in so much pain that you are considering this. You also sound very angry. Am I right? Who or what are you angry at? Have you lost anyone that you loved this way? I lost a 19 year old nephew on my ex husbands side this way. I met him when he was 18 months old and I had not children at the time. I just loved that child from first sight and kept him a lot because both his parents seemed to need help. I have never gotten over that loss. I don't know if what I have said is another reason but it's "REAL" life before and after you lose someone that you love very much. My nephew had lots of issues because of his childhood and he felt he had no other options and I had moved away and my heart is broken because of that. Think long and hard before making a decision to take a permanent step that you can't take back. Diane
Hi.
I'm not angry at anyone but myself. I'm just a waste of people's time. I can't commit to anything. I can't help anyone. So I don't see the point in trying. It's so exausting.
I'm on here because I'm f#cking lonely to be honest.
Don't buy it! You sound very angry to me. You may be lonely but there's more to this. On the other hand you could just be messing with us. If that's so. That's pretty sad. Diane
Nothing wrongvwithvadmittingvto being lonely. I think that’s why most of us end up on sites like this
Heartless reply
just keep talking. It helps x
Hi it's not up to you whether or not you deserve the gift of life as this belongs to our creator. You are here so why not do your best to learn to like your life. What have you got to lose after all?
Lots of people can't commit to anything or help anyone including me. Life wasn't given to you for that purpose. It's great if you can be a useful member of society but we all can in our own way even if it's just working for a living. We all know people and we all leave an impression on them so our lives are all intermingled. We would miss you if you weren't here.
Why are you angry at yourself? What have you done or failed to do that's so terrible? I am sure there are lots of worse people around than you like murderers, child abusers, animal abusers. Maybe they don't deserve to live either but who is going to make the decision that some people are worthy and others are not? It is only God who can make that choice.
Why not use that anger outward instead of inward and start thinking of ways to sort your life out. Who knows you might end up as another Mother Theresa or goodness knows. The future is unknown to us but you have yours to live. x
I often times think the same thing myself. But always it gets better before it gets worse. Sometimes we have to struggle, we are human and are meant to be broken down to be rebuilt into something stronger & greater. A reason to live is to prove yourself you are better and stronger than what you believe.
Wow. Thanks.
Hi Will - I'm so sorry you are suffering, exhausted, despondent, helpless and feeling hopeless. Please bear with me because i'm gonna get deep here - respecting your desire not to be exasperated with stock responses.
We choose this life. We choose everything about it and in it - right down to the colour of your hair. Everything you have been, done, will be, and those you connect with in this life has already been agreed to. We have all agreed to be here at this time talking to you, and we agreed to that long, long, long, ago. The destination is also planned and agreed to, but we humans are not allowed that knowledge because it will negate the learning and there would be not point in all of this.
The plan is not just about who we are in this life but how we handle the difficulty and challenges of being human - a state that is imperfect, incomplete, frustrating, painful and - mercifully - limited. The soul yearns to learn and can be reckless about the life it plans, piling a bit much on the plate. Why would the soul choose what we endure? Because this realm is a school. Everyone gets to go to class, and everyone gets to experience all the subjects on offer. Dropping out or playing truant on the course you have agreed to reneges on the deal you have made. It alters the agreement for absolutely everyone. Everyone. It could be the difference of you being there at that minute on that day when that little girl slipped and fell off the cliff when, according to the plan, you were supposed to be there to catch her, save her - that little girl who agreed to grow up and be the woman who negotiates the peace between warring nations that saves millions from mans violent nature and greed. But she didn't get to do that because you decided to drop out of school.
Further, it has been postulated that choosing to drop out prematurely might mean that, upon re-enrollment - and you WILL re-enrol because the soul demands it - you will find that not only do you have to complete the course you abandoned, but, on top of that, you have a whole new assignment to fullfil before you can advance.
Humans make rash and stupid decisions because we are egocentric creatures who seek to dominate the voice inside that is our soul. We get ill because illness and health are residents of this reality, and one cannot exist without the other. A realm of duality - high-low, black-white, good-bad, human-soul, night day, of cause and effect, action-reaction, consequence to choices. Free Will. The freedom to fight and survive, but also the freedom not to.
You haven't mentioned whether you have seen any medical professionals about this? Counselling? Medications? If not, that is where you start.
Well f#ck. That's um...deep.
I guess that answers my initial post.
But the truth is I don't care . If I didn't save the girl . I don't care of my parents die. (I may to a point) I I feel disconnected . Nothing matters to me. At least not for long. Every small satisfaction is so short lived. Counseling/therapy has done nothing but give more anxiety. Dropped out of school, didn't find it particularly difficult I just didn't see the point. Was never bullied. I've never been abused. I have no reason to feel this way. I'm on 200 certraline. Doesn't do much but make me feel sh#t if I miss a dosage. Which scares/confuses me as it feels so real.
Hi Will, I'd say things change all the time and you don't know what will come next. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life, could conversely be the worst, but you are thinking about ending it before it has even happened. Aren't you curious to find out?