¿Debería molestarme siquiera?

I have the chance to finally go through my shattered past but don't feel confident enough to do this now, giving that I'll have to start again. Where do I start and how, had some counselling before but clearly wasn't enough. Please help I'm 44 and still scared!

First thing i would say is that psychotherapy is more effective than councelling.  Couunelling has its place, it can be quite supportive - but its generally more of a conversation than anything too indepth, so if you can - opt for proper therapy.  Other than that, anything you say to either will be confidential, theres no judgement and you only need tell them what you want.  If you feel you dont want to talk to them, then theres really no point in going, itll only waste your time and theirs - they can help if you let them, but you have to open up first

Solo tú puedes decidir si crees/piensas que es lo correcto para ti, pero yo pensaba que el objetivo de pasar por esto era ponerte en un lugar mejor para que puedas avanzar en la adopción?

Si decides no seguir adelante, y luego te eliminan de su lista. Si en 6 meses decides que te sientes lista, ¿cuánto tiempo tendrás que esperar para empezar? Ha tomado mucho tiempo llegar a este punto. Has demostrado una gran resiliencia y fuerza de carácter hasta ahora, lo cual es una inspiración para otras personas que están pasando por situaciones similares. Esta es la última barrera que superar, nunca habrá un momento adecuado, pero eres una mujer fuerte con un objetivo en mente. No te rindas en la lucha xx

Hi ladies, I agree with needing support, I have found a counsellor who deals with PTSD. My problem is someone has thrown a spanner in the works and now says I can't adopt or foster as I have ibs, but wasn't told this when we first found out. Why do I bother fighting for anything all my fight has now gone. Just write I was raped on my head , then I WILL need help won't I? Bern judged again WITHOUT any proof! Why not let me physicallt HANDLE a child and let people see how much love I have to give. Why should I JUST be a rape victim? I DON'T want to be? Now just sad. Truly.

Why would ibs preclude you from adopting or fostering? It would make zero difference, like.saying you can't adopt if you had broken your leg once 10 years ago, totally irrelevant

I agree I think I've been put off by them for some reason but don't get why. Just gutted.

I now luckily have an update, a friend of mine at county hall, who has been througj the same thing and she is going to try to find some more information out for me. It's given me a little more hope.