So I’m posting a lot I’m just not sure how to handle this and it’s just uncomfortable... has anyone dealt with feeling weird being alive? Hard to explain I feel like my anxiety makes me feel not connected to being alive so when I’m doing things it doesn’t feel like me and that causes me to look around and not believe anything... it’s so scary. Then watching tv makes me question everything, “how would I be in that situation?” Id probably panic, Everything just looks odd... I want it to stop 
I feel so crazy. Even worse I have vivid memories of random things and it causes me to think I’ll never remember what it feels like to be normal again. I just try to relax but I feel like no matter what my mind won’t relax, doesn’t help that I can’t sleep and I have crazy bad muscle tension. But I’m waiting for my medication to help me just a little more... but I don’t know if it is.its hard to believe it’s anxiety
You need to discuss this with your GP Jess.
You say yu are waiting for your medication, whatever the drug is it will need time to work upwards of five weeks.
You can try Relaxation Technique Mindfulness that may help you relax.
Possible CBT may also help in treating these strange feeling you are suffering from.
Do you have any idea what brought this on as an Anxiety
BOB
Sounds like depersonalisation and derealisation which can go hand in hand with anxiety. Know that they are completely attributable to your anxiety and they will go away when your meds settle in. Very scary and unsettling at first. Label them as being borne from anxiety and use mindful breathing to calm yourself enabling more rational thought. I'm where you are...also waiting (impatiently) for meds to work and enduring the temporary side effects of that medication as best I can. We will beat this. Keep moving forward xx
It’s been 6 weeks now. So I’m not sure if the medication is working. I’m going to try CBTtherapy it’s just hard right now can’t afford it and will have to wait.
Still unsure of what caused it one day I had a weird thought and then it became an everyday thing.
I’m trying so hard it just makes me feel so disconnected from everyone and everything and I’ve been on this medication for 6 weeks. How long have you been on it??
Have you been in regular contact with your doctor? Have any of your symptoms improved? Sometimes it can take a little longer do meds to settle, sometimes you need another med on top of the one you're on, sometimes you need your dose increased. I've been on mine for about he same length of time and my doctor added another med 4 days ago so I'm in hibernation, waiting for it to work.
Not really because I can’t afford it at the moment so I have to wait. I’ve improved but this morning I woke up clenching and having uncomfortable thoughts and my heart was pounding. But I’ve been doing better just feeling like nothing with those feelings are going away. May I ask what your on?
Try listening to music or something to distract you. There’s actually quite a few songs about anxiety and stuff. Logic has a few (anziety and his 1-800-273-8255 song) ... sometimes finding different genres of music can provide me with temporary distraction.
Can I ask when you have a weird though or like a bad thought and try to ignore it I feel like I’ve accepted it and then I scare myself because I feel like maybe it’s changed me. Does that make sense? It just sucks. But yeah music is the only thing distracting me
It makes sense, everyone changes though. Just have to try not to over analyze everything. I tend to over analyze every ache and pain and it sends me into anxiety. Being slightly nervous can cause me to lose grip of it. Just last night playing poker people try to notice your tells... they notice I’m kinda of shaking and I felt really anxious because you could tell the little bit of anxiety in gambling was causing me to shake like I do sometimes. I tried to ignore it and it made me kind of mad that someone would say “look he’s shaking” so once I sucked it up and came back down I decided to make it my mission to clean them out of the poker table and I did. Lol ... just have to fight through it.
I've been on escitalopram for years but just recently started on lyrica (pregabalin). Have some 2mg diazepam which I've been dipping into today.
Jess
Get booked in for CBT ASAP, is there anyway we can help, have a further wword with your GP and see if you can get into a day centre, many are able to do CBT in the UK
BOB