Swimming in and out of the deep end of depression

Mental health
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So, this last 18 months has been Hellish. It really has. More stress than I can ever fathom. Arrested for a crime I was innocent of and, rightfully, cleared of late last year. Relationship collapse, new relationship, relationship collapse, new relationship, stalker, online harassment and, now, physical health issues.

I cannot stay happy. My mood can plummet at speed. Right now, I feel like all the life has been sucked out of me, waiting for the next disaster to befall my existence. That’s all it seems to be, an existence. It isn’t living. I don’t have a social life, I’ve gained weight I had originally lost, I have a massively negative opinion of my self-worth and my self-image, I lack motivation and I just feel like crying all the time. My dad passed away nearly three years ago, i don’t think I have processed that yet. I haven’t actually had time to grieve and my emotions are now so bottled up, I don’t know how to access them.

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i’m sorry for everything you are going through. Sounds like you need some major support right now. Is there anyway you can get into some counseling? You need direction and hope. If you don’t have access to a counselor, most communities have access to free or low-cost counseling.
Check out local community centers, churches often have free counseling or can point you in the right direction for more resources.
Look look online for local free or low cost counseling in your county.
just know that there are people out there who can help. You’ve been through a lot. take one day at a time, one baby step at a time. :heart: