I have been sober almost eleven months now. I have worked hard at sobriety and I feel as if it was not as hard for me, due to the fact that I am a binge drinker by nature. So I just took the binge out of my nature. Recently, my mom has fallen ill and is in the hospital. This has been the first time when I have really craved a beer. I cannot seem to be able to rationlize me not having a beer. This is all so new to me. Crap...
Hang on in there! Your mum needs you especially no, to be there for her, and not drunk!! You CAN do this. x
Yes be strong Mathew you can do this you have done so well please be strong☺
Wow you have done amazingly well don't give up now. Keep going you will get through this imGine if you got an emergency call to go to the hospital and you were drunk. Easy to say but this is worth a try.
good luck, hope your Mother gets well soon.
Perhaps your subconscious is finding an excuse to get you to give in to the demon drink again. Don't give into it for your Mum's sake, she needs you sober.
I hope she comes through this alright....and you too.
Mathew dont cut your self short beccause you are a bing drinker. What you have done is fantastic GOOD for YOU
Hang in there you have done very well
I binge drink and I would find it near impossible to go that long without drinking so good for you I think after 11 months you are doing so well and have created a life without alcohol in it. Hope everything works out for you.
Thanks Star. I never have needed alcohol every day but when I drank I loved to party. I do not want that again but I wish I could get a drunk on every now and then lol. It makes me that much adorable, in my mind anyway! Ha!
Thank you for your kind words.
Right now is not the time for sure. I do realize that but I was not having any cravings until recently.
I would not forgive myself if I was called to go to the hospital and I could not. Thanks!
Now is not the time for sure. But I do not know if I can keep this up forever.
I will stay sober for the time being. No promises for the future. lol
Hi Matthew I know for sure I do not get anywhere close to adorable infact I notice the huge affect alcohol has on me while very drunk and its not attractive at all. I cant keep up proper conversation when I get like that. But now I want to stop the binging altogether. Im finding it really hard to find the motivation to stop I think I used to want to get THAT drunk to stop the anxiety it is however very temporary and some of the worst anxiety of my life has been the day following a binge. Id say the reason you are craving is due to extreme stress.Hope your mums ok and good luck to you.
Sorry I know I am not adorable when I consume alcohol. I just try to mask my vunerability and overall anxiety with self deprecating humor. And yes I am extremely afraid and that is why I want to drink. And to tell you the truth, since I have quit drinking my panic attacks have ceased. Just be good to yourself Star and all will fall into place.
thanks
Maybe try Kudzu ,its helped me with my cravings , I quite often dont fancy a drink these days
What is Kudzu? Never heard of it...
Hi Matthew. What news? Still abstaining?? Try to stay sober and you are doing so well. Hope your mother is better soon.
Hi Matthew
This is a first for me on any website. As I have come across youre posting, it would appear that maybe Im not the only one to be suffering in silence. My mum passed away last November very suddenly from pnumonia. My whole family upbringing was a bad experience due to my dads uncaring nature. The whole situation is very complicated and mum was talking of divorce after 50 years of marriage. Mum and I were both seriously injured by a car driver while we were stood on the path last May. We both had operations but mum never really got over it as she was already disabled. I miss her every second of every day. I have had alcohol issues for around 6 years and suffer from a fatty liver and constant stomach pains. Mums funeral was the worse day in my life and I still cant accept that this has happened. It doesnt matter how much alcohol we consume, we still have to face life. I have suffered from depression all my adult life, as mum did, but will try to carry on for her sake. I am 49 years of age but have a daughter of 10 years. Just finished 4 cans of 7% lager. I water it down with 50% diet coke but am only kidding myself. I just drink more. I am seeing a mental health team but realise that only I have the power to make decisions. My dad has admitted that he had an idea something was wrong with mum as she was sluring her words, but he just left her in the armchair and went to bed. He found her dead the next morning. Would mum rather see me have a happy, productive life or die a horrible death with liver failure?? Alcohol is the biggest deciever on the planet. Good while it lasts but I am sick of staying in bed and sleeping it off for the next 30 hours.
Take care
Steve