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Mental health
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So ive never done anything like this before

but i really need help

I was promoted 2 and haf months a go

Id worked for 4 years for this promotion and everyone was so pleased and proud of me

but more importantly i was so happy

since ive been here every day just seems to get worse

Im making mistakes (which is fine) and not getting results im supposed to (again new in role not such a huge deal)

but its gotten to a point where i hate going to sleep cuz i know i have to get up in the morning and go to work

i hide in my office so i dont have to deal with people

i cry every day and sometimes get to a point where i cant breathe

my stomach is always in knots i dread every day and have spent the last month trying to think of ways to get out some as extreme as dying

The company pay for my flat so I can't quit as there is no where else for me to go yet i can't barethe thought of doing this anymore

I try and explain to people but i find it so difficult and they just dismiss it

I feel so trapped can anyone help?

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my heart goes out to you; but you just went through a big change, even though what most people would think of as a 'positive' change; I would suggest seeing a good holisitic doctor; maybe he or she can recommend a good therapist or some good herbs or even mild anxiety meds that can help calm you through the change

 

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maybe you should consider a bit of time for yourself or a change of job or get some medication sorted to ease the depression that you are feeling.

Rich

4

I very well know the feeling. It is hard and stressfull of course. I think you need a professional to help you. 

Tip: when I think of giving up, I tell myself "NO! They won't beat me! I WILL make it!". I gather all my pieces and I try.

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Thanks but im to anxious to see a doctor (ironic i know)

I know its the only was forward and i thought talking on here would help me voice my issues which would help me to get help but i still cant bring myself to make an appointment

Thanks for replying