Firstly, I have been absent for a while, not least because my laptop finally called it a day and I've had to get a new one.
Seconadly, I want to thank Joanna (C3Europe) and Paul Turner for their advice during this difficult spelll. Paul, if I had felt able to travel to Birmingham from Belfast, I would do so.
My problem has been regular, moderate drinking interspersed with severe binges, which have left me hospitalised on several times. I tried rehab last-summer, and the break from drinking probably saved my life, but the completete emphasis on religion, spirituality and meditation wasn't for me - the boredom associated witgh it just caused my mind to over-tick more.
I then had a period of relatiove stability, and then there was a trigger, the last two weeks of August 2016 are a blur, and then I stablised again for a couple of months. Then something went wrong at the end of October, and the vicious cricle reformed.
I began to get desperate to be prescribed anti-cravings medications to try The Sinclair Method, but none of the GPs in the practice I belkong to know about tghe meds and said they wouldn't prescribe them. I liaised with the NHS Community Addictions Team. They said that the GP could prescribe Selincro, but only they (Addictions) could prescribe Naltrexone and then only once abstinent (but with no timesacle on what abstinent meant).
I had to go to hospital for an apparently non-related matter just before Christmas - blinding headache, disorientation and severe high blood pressure - but, after thorough investigations, said to forget about alcohol on this occasion and that the spontaneous and eunexplained headache was probably the explanation for the very high blood pressure, which then settled.
Christmas and thew New Year were then very difficult due to recent bearevements and family disputes, but relatively uneventful. I should not have been drinking, but was, modestly, with food, but had noticed that my gastritis/GERD was playing up, somehthing that long-preceds alcohol problems.
One evening, I had a sudden urge to vomit and the vomit was essentially liquid, interspersed with what looked like grinds of coffee beans. Alarm signals went off, I rang 999, they sent an ambulanmce, and I was brought to hospital. They said I had had a minor upper GI bleed due to gastritis and needed to ensure that I took my Ompeprzole and, if I had to drink, to do it with food and not on an empty stomach. I raised the issue again, in hospital, of anti-cravings medications, and they said it was a matter for the GP and Addictions'Team.
So, I went to see the GPO, and basically pleaded with him to give me something. He said the only one he knew about and had prescribed to patients was Acamprosate/Campral, so he put me on that.
I have now been on it for three complete weeks and, if anything, think it is making me feel worse: constant headache, tired eyes, fatigiued but with insomnia and no energy (a vicious circle), and, not surprisingly, gastro-intestinal problems and bowel urgency. I also feel quite apathetic, irritable and as if I'm on a short fuse.
I aklso had a futher minor blled two weeks ago, because I had had a flare-up of IBS and not collected my Omeprazole prescription, and paid the price. The doctor said it was much worse thasn it looked and my heamoglobin/blood count was excellent, so it was scary but he wasn't concernewd. He also said all of the other blood/liver tests were either completely normal or better than the general population's.
I have been completely compliant and not missed a dose. Are these symptoms likely to wear off and am I likely to feel positive effects?
I am still seeing an Addictions' counsellor in the community once-fortnightly, andshe keeps takking about Naltrexone, but says abstinence must come first, whioch is not how the Sinclair Method works but seems to be how the NHS does, but she wouldn't define abstinence in terms of time. I pressed her on whether using it as a goal of abstinence was permissable, and she sxaid "No".
Do those of you who have experience of using Acamprosate know if I'm likely to improve on it, or how it works, or what?
Any drinking for now is minimal -I'm sure if I went backl to Addictions' and said I wasn't drinking, blood tests would probably indicate that (they have never been way-off anyway - the worst Gamma GT has been undeer 150 and evertything else has always been in normal ranges or returned to them quickly). I'm not making excuses because I know how destructive this all is and preventing a normal, functioning life, but the drinking has been sporadic - heavy has meant heavy, but sporadic but with big breaks of nothing or little in-between). In fact, when I told the Addictions' counsellor about no spirits for ages, just beer or cider with food, she thought it was good progress - until I mentioned the stale upper GI bleeds.
Any thought, folks. Cheers.