I'm 22 and always had anxiety about lymphoma and health in general. When I was 16 I was convinced i have lymphoma due to a "scarred submandibular gland" in which ultrasound results says it's normal sized and I moved on with life 
Fast forward to 6 years later, now I found a lymph node over the sternocleidomastoid muscle about two months ago. It's not visible but when you touch you can feel it under your fingers. I lost a week of sleep over it so I decided to see a ENT. She said it felt like a slight thyroid nodule since it's right side of the thryoid over the neck muscle. She didn't seem too conceded but sent me for an untlrasound of the neck and thyroid area. Same day I went to get that done and results "seemed normal" ... I felt relived. A week later after that I started getting panic attacks uncontrollably. Sweating, hot flashes, chills, muscle weakness, nausea, trembling, and unresponsive during conversation. The panic attacks would last for about an hour and then come back 20 minutes later all day long, everyday. During my panic attack days I would run to urgent care and tell them my symptoms. They ran some bloodwork and took my vitals. Everything is normal and was diagnosed with "anxiety reaction". The doctor checked my "lump" and said that's my muscle and to not worry. I was relieved!! But that same day in the evening I had another panic attack and some vomiting. These symptoms lasted 10 days straight... I finally decided to see a psychiatrist and they diagnosed me with GAD, health anxiety and panic disorder. They prescibred me 10mg of lexapro but have not taken any. I was still worried about my symptoms and my neck, and on top of this I was losing weight for no reason. So I found one of the top internist in my area by doing some research. She performed bloodwork and felt all around my body. She said there is nothing to worry about and that I'm fine! Again, I was relieved!! Two weeks later, I couldn't help but see her again to discuss my bloodwork because although they're all in normal range I was stressing about my WBC that is 10. At the urgent care which was 3 weeks prior to this visit my WBC was 7 so the increase worried me. Does anyone know what can cause an increase besides infection?? The doctor told me our blood isn't at the same level everyday. She told me it fluctuates ... it's in normal range and to not worry. She said my anxiety is out of control and to get on the lexapro that was given to me and want some to follow up in two weeks. I wonder why she wants to follow up?? That scares me. So I go home but still feel depressed and scared... On top of this a new symptom comes up .. I've been very very itchy all over my body but no rash. This has been going on for a couple weeks now. Im not allergic to anything! I don't have eczema or anything like that! I know itching all over with no rash is a symptom of lymphoma too. I am convinced I have it and that doctors are missing the diagnoses.
What are my next steps into ruling this out?
Should I take myself to the hospital?
I still have the lumpy sternocleidomastoid muscle in my neck and I'm constantly itching everywhere. I'm young and I don't want it to be too late if there is anything serious.
I just got married and in the process of moving with my husband. We also want to try for a baby this year. I just can't let this happen now and then it'll be too late for treatment. I don't want my husband to be left alone and suffer :'( I cry so much everyday about leaving him and my family behind. I don't want them to suffer because I love them so much and they love me unconditionally:'(
Salut Monii
Que faudrait-il pour vous convaincre que vous n'avez pas un lymphome ?
Il me semble que vous avez fait ce qu'il fallait en cherchant un avis médical
et les tests sanguins pertinents, et vous avez été soulagé pendant un certain temps à une occasion, mais ensuite vous avez rejeté la rassurance qui vous avait été donnée et vous vous êtes retrouvé avec de terribles craintes à nouveau. Vous devez commencer à faire confiance aux médecins qui sont très expérimentés pour sentir les ganglions lymphatiques et détecter les problèmes. Vos tests sanguins ont été OK et pourtant vous devenez anxieux à nouveau à cause de fluctuations normales.
J'espère que vous avez des gens autour de vous qui vous aideront et vous soutiendront, et je pense que vous devriez prendre le Lexapro prescrit pour vous aider avec votre terrible anxiété et tristesse.
Je ne suis pas un expert bien sûr, mais j'ai un background en soins infirmiers et j'ai été formé et je pratique la thérapie cognitivo-comportementale (TCC). Il semble que vous ayez eu beaucoup de rassurance de la part des médecins, mais que vos processus de pensée rejettent ce qu'ils disent. Il y a donc de bonnes chances que la TCC puisse vraiment vous aider à échanger ces pensées négatives contre des pensées positives et des sentiments plus heureux.
Je vous souhaite tout le meilleur, Monii.
Thank you for your reply. I just teared up with reassuring myself that my anxiety is real and my behavior is extreme. I need to remind myself that my behavior is very abnormal at this point. But I also I think because the itching started and has been non-stop all over my body which caused me to be convinced I have it... but also idk if this is a one psychosomatic symptom as well. The issue is I google everything and then I read a lot on cancer forums. The stories on there remind me of my symptoms.
Monii
Prenez le Lexapro... si vous le laissez dans le flacon, seul le flacon se sentira mieux.
Le médecin qui veut vous revoir dans deux semaines... elle veut vous voir pour s'assurer que vous avez pris le Lexapro et veut entendre si vous vous sentez mieux.
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Jusqu'à ce que vous preniez le Lexapro, vous continuerez à tourner en rond.
Veuillez republier après avoir commencé le Lexapro... parce que je veux que vous me disiez comment cela vous fait sentir.
Câlins
judith
The main reason why I haven't taken the lexapro is because my husband and I are TTC. So I am not sure if it'll harm the fetus as early as conceiving
Bonjour Monii,
Non, le Lexapro et la grossesse ne doivent pas être mélangés...
Demandez à votre médecin un antidépresseur à faible dose sans danger pour les bébés.
Autre idée, discutez avec votre gynécologue de la possibilité de traiter la dépression post-partum.
J'espère vraiment que vous publierez que vous avez un joli petit bébé en bonne santé... que la maman et le bébé vont bien.
Détendez-vous, vous avez beaucoup à faire.
Cordialement
Judith
Hi monii i am going through pretty much the same thing thinking myself into it, i havnt been told i have anxiety but am seeing a psychologist anyways. A symptom of anxiety is itchy skin without a rash, I understand how hard it is when all anxiety symptoms are symptoms of other illnesses and you dont know what is and what isnt anxiety at the time. I have just had an ultrasound on my glands and waiting results
Hope your feeling better though x