Here I am again like a broken record but just don't know what to do. I woke up today nervous and jumpy. I was so nervous that I made my heart race and called the paramedics. I felt fine once they got to me which in turn made me feel like a crazy person yet again. I have called the paramedics or ran to the ER so many times that I'm scared they won't come when I really need them. I just can't help it. When these crazy feelings come on the anxiety just overwhelms me. The fluttering in my chest, the internal tremors, weird head feelings, the flu feelings, the fluctuating body temperatures is just all overwhelming. Today I just can't seem to shake this nervous and jittery feeling. I ended up turning around to come back home on my way to work. I just didn't want my coworkers to see me acting like a crazy lady today.
.......I really needed to get that off my chest. Hope you ladies are fairing ok out there. I just want to feel like me again....
I thought that was me writing that I would have added blurred vision and light sensitivity I've been like that for the past 18 months I'm 42 btw docs sent me for menopause test which came back negative but all the symptoms pointed to Peri so they put me on HRT patches took them 3 attempts tho for them to decide I was on the correct ones half of the male docs don't know what their talking about useless anyway I've decided to come off them as they made me so tired I couldn't function also heavy head and electric shocks in my head very unpleasant going to try promensil double strength as they have good reviews I'm sorry I'm not much help it's the worst feeling that this all day every day feeling like today is your last day I've also been having thoughts wondering if my kids will be ok if I'm not here health anxiety is through the roof anyway I really do feel for you I wish I was male lol
I have found this terrifying before I knew I was going through the menopause. That's because (I'm now 55 and had a hysterectomy at 35 having had an ectopic quickly followed by cervical cancer at 25), I had HRT for 15 years. I thought menopause was a doddle (worked full time/achieved PhD) and did not realise all HRT does is 'delay it'. So the symptoms are back but because I finally know what's happening - I am able to 'talk' myself into calm. My GP isn't interested - apparently anymore HRT could kill me... I just wanted it until I could retire, she was convinced I would expire long before that! So, hard as it is, try talking to yourself, out loud as you like! Good luck Jamie 
Hi Jamie,
I just read your post. I am so so sorry you are feeling so absolutely terrible. I can completely relate to the morning you are having. You just described my mornings pretty much every single morning. Waking up with Morning anxiety, racing heart, jitters and feeling off balance is extremely scary. Some mornings I just get up walk around the house crying. Yes I too have gone to the ER so many times. Been to the doctors weekly. Blood tests, MRIs, CT scans, ultrasounds, EKGs etc . Nothing shows up. The only thing that shows up are fibroids, ovarian cysts, etc. All the typical female stuff for a woman my age (49). No one ever told us that perimenopause would be filled with such bad panic attacks and anxiety. All I ever heard about were hot flashes. I have not had one of those yet. Yes Jamie you are not alone in this nightmare. Are you taking anything for your symptoms? Natural plant based progesterone cream, Fish oil, Magnesium, cutting out sugar, salt and caffeine should help. I am just now thinking about possibly looking into plant based bioidentical hormones myself. Take Care Jamie you are okay and all these horrible frightening feelings are normal for perimenopause. So glad we have this site and each other.
❤️Debbie
Thank you,
I'm 38 and all this madness started about 3 months ago. It's been a scary roller coaster ride ever since. I was told by a doc at the ER that it was anxiety and I needed to talk to a psych. I was highly upset when I left. I'm sure it was some anxiety but I know what I was feeling physically. It getting hard to keep my job as I'm either not going or leaving early. I'm at the point now that I don't like being alone afraid of what will happen to me. My family is good about talking me through the panic and fight the urge to go the ER. I feel like I get a new symptom everyday. I'm noticing though that the closer it gets to my menses the crazier the symptoms get. My last two menses was weird for me. I bled less, wasn't on as many days as I usually am, and very minimal cramping. I just want to feel like me again. I really appreciate your reply. Helps me to feel I'm not alone.
Thank you,
I have certainly been talking to myself out loud and praying to keep from losing my mind. I was starting to feel like I was crazy and really needed to talk with someone. My family is good about trying to help but they are beginning to think it's mental. Some of it may be but I tell them all the time how I feel physically. They look at me crazy and tell me to lie down and relax. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. I am learning some ways of calming myself down so talking out loud to myself is definitely one way of calming down. Thanks for sharing...
Hi again Jamie,
I forgot to mention eating small protein filled meals every two to three hours helps with anxiety and heart palpitations. sipping ice cold water also helps with heart palpitations because of anxiety. Having a healthy protein shake and a few eggs first thing when I wake up really helps too. Good luck. I do all of these things and still have some horrible days but I do what I can. I also hate being alone too. We are all in the same boat.
❤️Debbie
Thank you soooo much Debbie for the kind words. I feel like crying as I type this. I try to keep calm as this is all so frightening. I am glad we have this forum and each other because no else seems to understand. The more I try to explain the more crazy I sound to folks. I walk around the house pacing to try and take my mind off it all. I was on the way to work, turned around, came home and got up in my bed. Which is starting to be my ritual. I have to get up now to pick my daughter up from work and I'm still nervous and jittery. I try to act normal in front of my kids but they notice and start asking me am I ok. I feel bad telling them I'm not because they wouldn't understand. I'm just really glad I have you and the other ladies to vent to. It really does help.
Thanks,
I will try the small protein meals and shakes. I do notice that I don't feel so bad when I sip water. Some days are good but some are horrible. Today is one of them. These heart flutters are working on me today.
Hi Jamie
You really need to let your kids know that you are not ok at the moment. They will understand and help you. This is temporary, this stage will not last (you have to help yourself by keeping your diet good, sugar, caffeine are major triggers, and taking a walk everyday and taking time for yourself). You need to look after yourself and make no apologies for how you are feeling. It takes time, but this jittery stage is temporary. It will get better.
Hi Jamie and rstep04, your symptoms all sound like peri symptoms....and they suck! I've had every one of them too! Something that helped me was Vitamin B6. I take 100mg a day but others take up to 150mg. It helps with the anxiety, the inside tremors and the foggy headed feelings. I also have heard many women take a Magnesium supplement that also helps! I haven't tried that yet because the B6 has worked for me! The heart palpitations are horrible and very scary! I calm myself down by closing my eye and do some deep breathing.....breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth. It's such a difficult time for women....some worse than others! I know some days you dread even getting out of bed but I promise there is an end to this madness we go through so hang in there and stay strong!
Thank you Metamoprhed,
I have told my oldest what's going on with me and she really is a big help. I just tell the little one that I'm not feeling well and she tries to tell me jokes to make me laugh. So now that you said that they are a help. I have cut out the caffeine and now working on cutting out the sugar. I try to keep busy and take some moments for myself. It's really cold here in my area so I haven't really been out to take some walks so I just walk through the house. But I will certainly take better care of myslef.
Thanks for letting me know what has been working for you. I bought a multivitamin that I haven't tried yet. It has the B6 and the magnesium in it. I also need the iron. If it was not for my aunt bringing peri and telling me to research it to my attention, I would still be going to the ER everyday. In doing my research, I came across this forum and it was truly a blessing for me . I was starting to feel alone, down, and like no one understood. I am just finding out that the women in my family suffered peri pretty bad without taking anything, but no one would speak of it. So having you ladies share your expierences and suggestions for help has really been good for me. So again, thank you.
this stage was the worst for me. But I got through it and you will too... I found keeping my diet really healthy helped loads. You will look back at this 'weird' stage in a while and you'll feel so strong that you got through it. 
take care of yourself
Sorry to hear you've had such a horrible time.
I was thinking of asking in a discussion do any of you get that jumpy nervous thing? It seems you do.
I'm on HRT but it's that cold time of year when our radiator in our bedroom goes off with a bit of a bang when it's cooling down.
Every time it does it I near jump out of my skin heart pounding like someone has just shot a gun near my ear. It's really not that loud and may do this 4 or 5 times as it cools but every time I'm almost jumping out of bed.
When I was younger I would be the least nervous and laid back female you could know.
I know what you mean about wanting to call paramedics and I have taken myself off to A and E once.
Now I just keep telling myself "it's OK, you've felt like this before and it was fine, see how you feel in an hour" stuff like that.
Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
Hi thanks for your message ever since all this started I can no longer take b vitamins as my anxiety spirals I used to take them every day and be fine does anyone else get this with b vits
yes. B vitamins help loads other people but they seem to cause me anxiety so I can't take them. There is another discussion on here called 'to B or not to B' where others have this problem with b's aswell. It's good to know that others have the same effects!
Hi thanks for your reply I've even tried liquid form still the same I wonder since this Peri started why my body and just started to reject it as I had taken b vits since I was about 19
I am on the same track as you Pat, just started B vitamins and use the breathing technique to help with the anxiety. I went to a few meditation classes where they focused on anxiety. Might be worth a shot for some of you ladies, doesn't work for everyone. I have suffered anxiety for many years, long before all this other bull***t started with menopause. Between decades of anxiety and menopause, I don't think I have any concept of what normal is anymore.
Thanks for your reply Zigangie,
I try to tell myself when it happens that it will go away. When it happens at home I seem to calm down a little better but when I'm out, it's a mess. It's the worse when I'm driving. I have to pull over and collect myself. Which was what happened to me this morning. I was driving back home nervous and jittery, then my heart starting racing and I got dizzy. So I called the paramedics. Felt crazy after they got there because then I was ok. So now I try to talk myself off the ledge. Some days I can't take it as I'm so on edge. Like I have been all day today. I have to pick up my sister in about 30 minutes and I am really not ready for that ride today. I'm thinking of asking if she can get a ride.