Last night like a clown I forgot to take my medications, I have them worked out so I take the drugs that make me sleep like Tramadol, Amytrptalene, Citalopram and several others
What happens in my case I suffer severe waking nightmares and I wake up in the morning like something like the cat brought in.
Sad to say I have to take my night tablets after breakfast and my Statins at lunchtime so I do not mix certain medications. So today has been one big yawn where I have not been able to sleep, and my concentration has been really shot.
Pleased to say I am back on track tonight and my Wife Hazel has given me my nightime medications.
The problem I have is I am not trusted with my medications and I have to be given them because of my suicide attempt, and a backslide I took several months ago, The crisis team had been called and I was seen by several Specialists and now I will be seeing my new CPN next week. So walking out the house and disappearing did not do me any good. All I did was walk out on the Crisis Team and did not return after they had waited to see me for two hours. Aparently my wife was supposed to call the Police to find me if I had not returned home by a certain time. Glad to say I was back before the given time so that has caused me further grief.
We can do really strange things when we are feeling low and in a way I had not done myself any favours.
Now I am calm and feeling not so bad, although I am still feeling the backlash. When depressed we can make people who love us so depressed by our actions. We need to think before we jump I suppose
BOB