Why can’t I just be normal ?

I’m so tired of anxiety I have GAD and health anxiety all the time I’m on edge ! It’s so constant and I can’t deal with it all the time i think I have some sort of disease or cancer and it’s no fun some days I can distract myself and be at a little ease but days like today Im in tears and pretending to be ok when I’m just dying on the inside  idk how to live and I’m feel like giving up this is no way to live 

Hey. You're not alone in this. I went through what you are going through and I'm a lot better. If I could give you one piece of advise it would be to keep your mind busy with something else. Remember, if you ever need a chat or anything I'm more that happy to talk to you

First of all, please don't think you're not normal. 1 in 4 suffer from mental health issues, that's a whole lot of people, so in my eyes your very normal.

I've had anxiety issues at varying severity for years too, HAD specific two years. Currently have mixed anxiety and depressive disorder. It's tough, feeling that adrenaline on edge feeling near 24/7.

Step one for me was accepting I have issues with anxiety...I've had some variation of anxiety over half my life...i may always have to some level and that is MY normal.

Step two was practicing mindfulness and retraining of my thought process...still very hard, but working on it.

Step three... allowing myself to slip. I get overwhelmed, I have anxiety attacks. I have days where every technique I've ever learnt goes right out my head and I panic. I cry, I feel fed up. I get waves of symptoms...I just allow it to happen and then try again tomorrow.

In terms health worries, I try never to Google. Someone gave me a great tip on here, if you have to Google a symptom you're having, type anxiety with it. You'll be surprised how much anxiety really does cause. I also read 'Help me I'm a hypochondriac' by Philip Martin's and of all the self help books I found this one the most relatable and putting thing into perspective.

Thank you so much for your advice