hi all, ive been struggling with depression and anxiety for a few months now, stress and problems over the past few years, i seem to be thinking more of the sad times and not the good times, i was never thr centre of attention kind of guy but was always to one to make people laugh and smile, since the depression and anxiety have hit me i've loss the happiness, the willingness to train in the gym, just want to stay in bed and dont care about what happens to me, i've read alot of your posts and feel like i have alot in common with a good fair few of you, my only hope and i pray to god we all get well again and continue with a happy journey and safe future.
thanks nick
Hi nick, sorry to hear you are struggling, I have been on citalopram for 7 years now and still have really bad days. I do believe though that without the tablets I would be in care somewhere
Welcome, Nick...
It's tough to get out into the world when anxiety and depression take hold. I've been living with anxiety and obsessive intrusive thoughts lately and I'm just drained of all energy. I am fighting this though because I have a family and friends who need and love me. You'll be ok! Fight!!! Have you seen your GP about it?? I am on my fifth day of an antidepressant and I'm seeing little glimpses of hope. It takes time to build a blood level, but from what I hear in these posts, it's worth the wait. Chin up!!
i've been put onto citalopram 10mg to be increased over the next two weeks to 20mg, reviewed with the doctor at the end of month and possibily uped again to 30-40 mg.
Hi nick
As long as you know and have dealt with what mafe you feel like this in the first place thats the main thing
Yes you will feel better soon just give cits a chance you'll soon be back at gym
That's what my doc wants me to do. I'm on 10mg and in two weeks he'll evaluate my progress and go from there.
Hi Nick
I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling like this. You are exactly where I was 3 years ago, and I couldn't be happier now. I was on citalopram for about a year and also had
counseling, which really helped me. I have never looked back, and although I
occasionally feel blue (which is reassuring as it wouldn't be normal to feel happy ALL of the time)
Don't give up hope - you will find yourself again once the medication helps the anxiety
to subside. You are about to embark on a journey of discovery, and you will find the
man you are supposed to be and the happiness you so truly deserve!
Good luck!
hey rick, thanks for your reply, get well dude, im so gutted i feel this way,life is hard without this problem n our lives, 7rs is a long time pal, how are the good days ? are they the guy you used to be ?
Your post is encouraging Fairypie!! I had a really good day yesterday, but today I'm feeling kind of anxious and I'm fighting these intrusive thoughts. It's tough!!!
hey Leahandrea, your right about the fight,yes the doctor has put me on citalopram 10mg to start, then up to 20mg and review at the end of the month, with the possiblity of anything up to 40mg, i look forward to the day we can stand up and fight back, i will get back, but right now i can't,
thank you for your kind words, keep going leahandrea !
hey Nick, I do have really good days, but I am starting to think that I need to be on a much higher dose to feel really good. Stupid things annoy me like people always talking to me at dinner time for example, (which is crazy),
Hi Leahandrea
I spent my entire 20's feeling on edge and so anxious that it stopped me living my life. I promise you that as long as you keep a positive mindset and refuse to let it beat you you'll feel so much better in time. Having counseling really is the key, as you learn to manage your life a lot better as well as understanding what triggers it. Mine was relationships which stemmed from an unstable family life on an emotional level. Being on the medication took the anxiety away and allowed me to rationalise without my physical symptoms taking control.
I now stay away from the things that trigger it i.e. Toxic relationships and have found myself so much happier and in control of my life.
Hey Nick, by the way how old are you
Thanks, Fairypie! I'm fighting! I've been down this road once before, but it's been many many years so I forget. I am dealing with mild depersonalization on top of the anxiety and intrusive thoughts so there are times where I'm just really scared.
It's definitely a very mean and vicious fight, Nick71023, but we're strong and having each other to vent to is encouraging. That's what my dr has me doing. I'm only on my fifth day.
The pills will take 4-6 weeks for a total effect. They should give you back the energy to work on dealing with the stress and what else may be contributing to the depression. A therapist will also be helpful. In the end with meds and hard work you will be the same if not a better person.
hi Gill, yes everything is delt with from the past, the last thing that made me hit rock bottom was my mum going into hospital with nemonia, she is on the mend but just worry about her most days, thank you kindly
maybe thats my next step with the counseling fairypie, i truely hope and wish for everyhing you wrote, and for you too, its so reasuring to be in contact with people that have suffered the same, the depression and anxeity that my family and friend dont quite understand.
best wishes fairypie
hey rick, go back to your doctors and get the dose put up, yeah i have simular annoyances like yours, things i used to laugh about seem to make me re-act so sharply now, this was never me in the past.
hey rick, im 42 dude, into gymwork, wakeboarding, jetskiing and toughmudder challanges / but these things just seem a distant memory right now, the things i used to love and would love to be back at them pal.
how about you Rick?? what did you love doing ? what do you miss?what do you want to do again pal?