I’m hoping to speak to my doctor about choosing to have a Hysterectomy. I’m 24 years old and have no children, and for personal and physical reasons- I will never have children.
I started my periods when i was 12 and they’ve been ridiculously heavy from the start, I got bullied at school because I was always having some sort of ‘accident’ with them, I ended up not going to school whenever I had my period. The doctors put me on Tranexamic Acid to help and they’ve worked fairly well.
I suffer with depression and anxiety, and over the last few years I’ve developed what seems to be terrible PMT. The days running up to and first few days of my period, I get paranoia, my depression gets worse, my anxiety gets worse, I self harm, I get suicidal, I’ve made plans in the past to kill myself because of the way I feel.
I was put on the contraceptive pill so that I’d only be having 4 periods a year and therefore wouldn’t have to deal with all the emotional stuff as often. It started off ok, I had period pains constantly and I started bleeding despite the pill, so I came off it and had the most painful heavy period I’d ever had. I was in agony and honestly if there was a chance I could have been pregnant I would have genuinely thought I was having a miscarriage.
Once that had ended I started taking my pill again, as advised, and a few days later I was bleeding again. I was bleeding a fair bit and this carried on for two weeks, getting heavier each day, so I stopped taking the pill again 9 days ago and I’ve had another period, which is now on day 9 with no sign of stopping anytime soon.
I’m exhausted and feel so tired and sick, I’ve been bleeding pretty much constantly for three weeks now and I’m so sick of it all. I don’t know if I’d rather have the suicidal thoughts or whatever mess this is now!
I just want it taking out of me desperately. Like I said, I will never have children for various reasons that won’t change.
I’m sure my age and lack of children will be against me but honestly I don’t think I could make it through another few days of my PMT.