wendl--i feel for you, those symptoms are so bad. when you quit completely for a few months, how did you do that and what was it like? withdrawals? It sounds like having someone there with you made a big difference. I can understand that. It's good just that you take less some nights. But those symptoms are rough. i don't know what symptoms i'm going to get when i stop taking the z meds, maybe tapering, maybe not, depending on how it goes. i don't seem to get noticeable withdrawal symptoms during the day, or even late at night when i haven't had the meds since around 4am. So hopefully that's a sign that it will go as smoothly as can be expected. But if i knew that, i would've done it by now.
aaron--i used to do meditation and i agree, it helps so much. Even after i stopped, the effects stayed with me, it's changed me forever. I became addicted to valium, took it for 20 years for sleep, suddenly developed tolerance in 1993, dose increased, ran out of valium, went cold turkey. The withdrawals weren't too bad, 3rd and 4th day the worst and then, it dissipated, and that was one of the times in my life that i did some meditating. i was reading a book for Silva, i forgot his first name, called You The Healer, and he writes about training your mind to go to the alpha level, where you can bring your brain to have alpha brain waves, and that helped me a lot after i had gotten off the valium, to adjust to sleep without it. Recently i tried it, had to buy a new copy of the book because i lost the old one, i tried "going to alpha" when i would wake in the night, instead of taking more Z drugs, but i couldn't do it like i used to, and i think that's because then, i didn't have the drugs in my system. Now i do. But i think of that as something i can do as i get off them.
I'm interested in neurofeedback, a therapist trains you in how you can get into an alpha state, using biofeedback. I bought an Alpha-Stim which is a device that brings the brain to an alpha state with some kind of electronic stimulation but though i am buying it, on an installment plan, i haven't tried it yet, i'm afraid because i'm on so much medication, i don't think it can work, and i want to use it when i'm off or cutting down the meds, not while i'm still depending on them. I'm taking 7.5mg zopiclone and about 17mg of zolpidem a night, and then when i wake in the night, i wait 5 hours from when i took the bedtime dose and then i take another 10mg zolpidem or so. To me, this is really out of hand. I took zolpidem for years and never increased the dose, but in the past year, i've added zopiclone and the zolpidem dose is gradually increasing.
Another one of our forum friends, Dean, has an Alpha-Stim and he posted about how it's been working for him so far, in the past week. i hope to hear more from him.