Hi bella
i feel for you, and totally relate--sleep is a natural need and some of us don't find it that easy. That can lead to taking medication for it. Unfortunately the medications are not a permanent solution and bring problems of their own, even when they work. I am taking zolpidem (ambien) two times per night to get still not that much sleep. Until the end of February i was taking zopiclone 7.5 mg too every night for a year and a half. zolpidem is kind of like zopiclone, but my experience has been that zopiclone will get you to sleep faster but it's shorter acting. zolpidem doesn't leave me feeling groggy during the day nearly as much as zopiclone did. I have been on zolpidem for 20 years. i do not recommend it, but the fact that i've been taking it for so long shows that i do get help for sleep from it. There is also an extended release zolpidem which is supposed to keep you asleep longer. i think it does. But anyone who uses any of these medications continuously will eventually and gradually get a tolerance to it so that it has less and less therapeutic effect (sleep) but it will have more and more side effects (grogginess, memory impairment, other thinking impairment, and worse--black outs, altered states of consciousness--these can happen during the day as well as right after taking it)(i've had all these things). I have decided that i would rather have less sleep than be on these medications and i saw an addiction medicine doctor last week who helps people taper off of various drugs. It sounds like your sleep problem is pretty severe if none of these medications put you to sleep. i think that there's a good chance zolpidem might get you to sleep, but it is the shortest acting of any of these medications and it won't keep you asleep for very long. What i have done about that is to take it a second time during the night. This still only gets me a total of about 4 or 5 hours sleep for the whole night, so it's not a solution. Also recent research has shown an association between these kinds of medications and serious chronic illnesses like cancer and heart disease--so, i feel bad that i keep takign it every night. It's just so hard to give up having control over going to sleep which i do get from them. They do put me to sleep, but then i wake up before long. However, the crazy thing is that the medications cause insomnia. As a person gets a growing tolerance for the medication, they have a kind of withdrawal symdrome in between doses. It's called interdose withdrawal. People differ in the nature of these symptoms. i don't get them during the day whicih some people do, not that i'm aware of. But just waking up and not being able to go back to sleep is a kind of withdrawal symptom, when you wake up after 2 to 4 hours. Before i started the zolpidem 20 years ago, i was taking Valium for sleep for many years. What i found out after i stopped it (cold turkey) was that my sleep improved. It wasn't normal sleep where you go to sleep and stay asleep all night. I would wake in the night. But over time i gradually slept longer periods of time, which i never would have slept on the medication once i started having the tolerance for it.
so i'm just sharing my experiences and what i've read on discussion forums that other people have and googling the effects of these medications.
When you start increasing your dose, from 7.5 to whatever, especially after being on the medicatio for such a short time, this sounds like if 15 mg does work for you, i doubt it will work for very long, as your body will get used to it. It may get you to sleep but not keep you asleep. and then you may think of taking it again in the same night like i have done. And then your body will need more of it to get some effect. I have seen people on this forum who have been taking much larger amounts of zopiclone, several tablets. They come here for support in getting off of it. . It's certainly possible to take higher doses, though not recommended, it's unhealthy, and it can cause people to have car accidents and things like that during the day when they are taking higher doses. It doesn't keep people asleep but it does keep them hung over or in various kinds of altered states. And most people i know on sleep medications are tired during the day. For me, it's a different kind of tiredness from the kind i get from not sleeping. i guess it's just a grogginess.
There are various nonpharmaceuitcal things to do to get better at coping with sleep problems. Those things generally won't have the kind of effect the medications have of getting you to sleep easily but practiced over time, they can lead to getting more refreshing rest out of whatever sleep you do get, so that you don't need as much, and also, it gets easier to go back to sleep when you wake up. For me, i want to try something called neurofeedback, it's like biofeedback but specialized just for the brain, and it trains the brain to generate alpha waves which is the state that leads to sleep. I am not going to try it until i get off the zolpidem because it won't work. I am currently taking about 27mg of zolpidem a night. The prescribed dose is 10mg. Another thing that i find helpful is cognitive behavioral therapy which is a therapy that works with thoughts and beliefs. When i am emotional, as i am about sleep, fearful of not getting enough, fearful of being tired in the day, fearful of not having control over being able to get to sleep, i tend to have thoughts that are not all that rational, i exaggerate the negative, i overgeneralize, i think in negative ways, and these thoughts add to my anxiety, and i've found that i can work with the thoughts, to contest them, to ask myself what is really so bad about what i am feeling scared of, is it so bad that i should be reacting the way i am (as if it's an extr4eme catastrophe)? So that is helpful to me. Once i get off the medication, then i will find out how i'm going to cope. When i went off the Valium, it was not as bad as i had feared, and i remember that. Still, i'm scared, but i am going to get off these meds. i did get off the zopiclone and now i'm going to get off the zolpidem.
In your situation, if you think you can use knowledge that you have about the medication, that it has a high risk of dependency, then maybe you can take it every few days, not every day, and discipline yourself to wait. Go without having enough sleep for a couple of days and then take it on the third night, but keep control over not letting it become totally habitual--that's what i would like to do if i could go back and do it over. When i got into the zolpidem, in the beginning i only took it a few times per month for a long time. I wish i had continued doing that, put up with short sleep for a few nights, and then take the medication to get some better sleep for a night or two. So that's why i suggest that. But we each different, the medications don't effect everyone the same and you have to do the best you can. As someone who doesn't sleep that easily, i really sympathize with you and my heart goes out to you.
Others may have other suggestions and ideals.