I can relate to your mindset. I myself was diagnosed sept 2014. i actually went to my ob/gyn after my ob. I count myself blessed that it wasnt HIV. So this is pretty much how i keep sane. My partner has it too. We both got our results within weeks of each other. There's really no way to tell who gave whom what if you've had other sexual partners. So, i live with it, take my L_Lysine and Vitamin C to boost up my immune system. If i only knew how easy it was to catch Herpes...smh...but as they say, hindsight is better than foresight.