depressed for 6 days

Mental health
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hi

i had clinical depression 13 years ago and lately on new years eve i started feeling down it all started after i was drinking at night about 2 glasses of wine whenver i was going to my boyfriends home i would have a nice glass of wine on weekends but i stayed longer than weekend so i drank every night wine only nothing mixing nor did i get smashed to but my boyfriend asked me if i was okay and i said why he said youve been drinking every night so i panicked thinking i was turning into a alcoholic my dad and brother are so i panicked and i stopped but then noticed i was getting sad i couldnt even have 1 glass so my boyfriend kept telling me i am not! a alcholic i just panicked started to cry and went online and started looking up alcoholics ever since then ive been depressed now and he lives in a pretty size big home and i am used to the city so when i go there i dont like to stay alone so i started thinking what would i do if i had to stay alone here blah blah blah..... i am keeping myself active daily being strong i dont want to go back to the way i was 13 years ago it was not a nice part of my life very depressed then! ever since i was ok i even stopped all my medications years ago on my own and i got better gradually ( the medication helped a little! so i need some feedback on this am i panicking about the drinking part and the depression part??? oh btw i am also moving in with my boyfriend in a month i love him dearly he is my best friend and i am lucky to have him! but part of me is scared though i dont know whats going on 

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Dear Lucy

When you drink do you know when to stop? Because an alcoholic doesn’t. Also do you eat while or after drinking? Because an alcoholic won’t . I am not sure where the sadness is coming from

When you stop drinking. You would need to ask a professional. Alcohol is a depressant though. Being alone in that big house can be scarey. You may get use to it after awhile. I would seek professional help especially since you have experienced depression before.

Best of luck

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Hi Lucy. Boy do I respect you! You are taking a good look at yourself and your drinking before and "if" it becomes a problem. Just because your bf mentioned that you were drinking every night does not mean you have a problem nor do you have to panic. Just stop and ask yourself questions. I am always and always have been careful with Alcohol because my father was alcoholic and I loved him so...much and it ran in the family. I'm just cautious. 

As far as moving in with your bf every change causes anxiety. I think and takes time for adjustment. If I am aware of that upfront it helps me. Will you have to make other changes like job changes? Try staying in the moment don't get too far out in tomorrow. 

I can see why you would be fearful of having another bad bout with depression like you suffered in the past but this time you will know the symptoms and can get to a doctor get some meds and counseling and nip it in the bud. 

What do you think? Don't you think that you can trust yourself? 

Diane