Hi everybody, this is my first post on a forum, you all seem lovely and really helpful so here goes.. In 2013 (i think) i had a femoral hernia repair done in my right groin and have had nothing but extreme pain and problems since. The incision developed a seroma which had to be drained 4 times before my consultant popped it with a scalpel as it had broken through my incision.
My doctor says that I also have nerve damage after the surgery and I was left having to use a wheelchair for travelling outside of my house. The mesh in my groin feels like it is being forced out of me, like my body is rejecting it. It has felt like that since The surgery and I have been fobbed off so many times.
The pain is indescribable! I was taken off opiate painkillers last year as my system had become addicted to them and they weren't dealing with the pain. I think that it is important that I mention that I suffer with Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain Syndrome, Hyperalgesia, Tietze Syndrome, Endometriosis and a whole host of other delightful chronically painful conditions; I also have Bipolar and other mental health issues. I have had quite a lot of surgery and basically can feel the pain in all of my scars as if I've just had the operations done.
The more they operate the worse my conditions become. I was taken to A&E on Saturday morning with pain so bad it was making me vomit, the surgeons checked me over and said they cannot operate as it would worsen my condition (I do understand that they have a duty to heal, not harm) and I'll be honest, I am not keen on having more surgery.
I have a beautiful daughter who is a young carer and is my angel, she needs me functioning as best as I can, thinking, conversing with her and encouraging her to thrive! She needs me to be her mother, not her patient.
The pain medication leaves me pretty much off my face and unable to process my thoughts clearly. I was told on Saturday that The opiates are pretty much the only valid option I have along with a trip to the pain management team who have previously refused to put me on their pain management programme because of the depression that I suffer due to my conditions. I understand that too though.
I am nearing my wits end, I wasn't told that the hernia surgery could leave me in this state and now I'm stuck with this stuff inside me :'( The mesh isn't my only source of pain but it is a massive contributing factor. There are times when the pain is SO bad that I actually wish I could just die! (I won't, I'm too stubborn and my father's suicide when I was 15 means to me that I would never do that to my daughter)
Is my life going to be either being heavily medicated for the pain and completely unable to function or being in so much pain on a daily basis that I'm physically I'll and unable to enjoy the time that I have left? I am only 37! Has anybody else had this problem and what did you do?
Warmest Regards
Jenni x