Hi everyone I've had derealization for 12 years non stop....I went cold turkey off my meds for 6 days and it's messed up my head big time, I feel so disconnected from my body and mind, I keep having panic attacks about my reality and I dont know who I am anymore! The past couple of weeks have been unbearable I've been back on mirtazipine and upped the dose since Sunday now. I use to having derealization but I have had this disconnected from my body for a couple of weeks now....I hate life at the moment, I hate the way I feel, every second of everyday is torture, I want to take a gun to my head and blow my brains out 😢
Omg , that’s sounds awful, I’m so sorry that you are suffering so much. It’s things like this that people don’t understand when suffering depression.
It’s such pain and torture that you are going through I’ve been there I know how sad and tiering it is.
Listen I know what I’m going to say is going to be hard for you to believe rite now, but NOTHING NOTHING lasts for ever accept taking your life. There is no cure and no going back, the pain is passed on to loved ones Hun. You have gone through this for a long time now, and you have been on meds only for a couple of weeks. You know that it gets worse before better, you neeeed to hang on in their for another 3 to four weeks, and I promise you things will feel a lot better. I know it’s hard but four weeks is nothing compared to for ever, please please try with all your might to fight for your life because suffering depression is actually fighting for your life, people who have not suffered don’t know that this is what we are up against. But people do get well they really do. You will get better.
Walk read, watch silly programmes talk on here we are here for you my dear.
Big hugs to you my love xxx
Thanks so much for your lovely reply....I will be strong and hang in there!
Hello Pamela , I think I have the same symptoms , do you feel your body numb and you are like in a dream ? I had it for 2 days now and it’s scary , is it only anxiety?
Yes feels like you are in a dream and your body doesn't feel like your oweekend. ...it's very disturbing it is a symptom of anxiety so please don't worry about it, I never knew about depersonalisation disorder till a couple of years after I got it and I worried myself with thoughts like I had a brain disease!
Thank you , should I talk to my doctor ? I am now taking 10mg cipralex everyday and I started to some weed after a pause of 1 year I think that’s why I feel this way , should I talk to my doctor ? Or it will just pass away ?
Hope you feel better
I know you will be okay, we all understand how you feel, sometimes knowing your not alone helps a lot. Just keep in your mind you will get well and think about all the things you will do once your better. It will kind of make you excited to get well , I used to even think about what I would wear, where I would go, and how I would help others. It took a while, but aventualy it happened. I must admit I’m scared everyday that what if it happens again , but I know I must think positively . I’m not sure if you are religious or not , but faith in god has helped so much too. Always here if you need a chat, and feel down again, people with depression need reminding everyday that it will get better. Xx
Talk to your dr, and please stop the weed. Be strong it takes time to recover , be gentle on yourself and know that rite now you’re not well, keep to your meds and take a day at a time. X
Thank you Latifa and Allah with us , I am religious (Muslim) and it’s helping me to feel a bit strong , it happened to me before for 4 days but I didn’t smoke any weed that time and now it’s happened again , it’s only anxiety do you think ?
Alhamdulilah ,
Yes it anxiety nothing more. Read Quran and stay al Kursi everyday, their is a special dua for anxiety too, read it everyday , and please do your prayers.
Inshala be patient and Allah will help you .
The problem that I live in Europe in one room flat and I have a dog and there is alcohol at home ( it’s for my wife ) I don’t drink alcohol so I can’t pray at home and it’s hard to go to the Moschee 5 times everyday , I am praying only Friday and I am listening always to Quran