Hi, I've been suffering with bad anxiety and relationship ocd. Its caused me to become depressed too. Last week i thought i was getting better but now i feel rubbish again. Everyone around me is getting fed up of listening to me and it feels like i can't talk to anyone. I've tried to register with numerous councillers but they're all really busy. i don't know what to do. I feel so disconnected and detached from everyone, mainly my boyfriend. I'm just really scared and feel like this is never going to pass. I keep getting the feeling that i'm stuck in a really horrible nightmare. What do i do, i just want to feel happy, in love and connected again. Please someone talk to me 
Hi Becky I know exactly what you are going through as I am suffering from extreme anxiety symptoms as we speak..You are not alone ..there are so many suffering the same sypmptoms of this dreaded condition I am actually surprised at just how many people out there are suffering. I also feel so detached from everything and everyone at the moment and its such a horrible and scary feeling. I find it very hard to talk to people who have no idea what its like to feel this way and don't understand. I suffered these same symptoms 25 years ago after the birth of my son and I did recover. Now they are back and I have a feeling its because of all the stress I have been under lately. It will pass you just have to try and not give it any energy even though thats easier said than done. I try and keep distracted and don't try and force normal feelings otherwise it just gets worse. I have been suffering from anxienty and nervous problems since I was 14. I am here if you need to talk. Hope you feel better soon.
Thank you so much for replying. It's just so scarey. My anxiety latched itself onto my relationship at first and i've been suffering with Relationship OCD where i've had doubts and horrible thoughts about an extremley loving healthy relationship. Although i'm stopping having those thoughts now, i just feel numb and like everyone is really far away. I want to feel happy, in love and myself again. I just feel like a totally different person and i feel like its never going to end. I don't know how this will pass, i feel so hopeless
Hi Becky..you are most welcome..I feel for you and what you are going through because we feel so alone in our own thoughts and feelings and that can make it hard to reach out and talk to others..but like I said before you are not alone..not anymore. I know what you mean when you say you feel numb..my brain feels numb like I just can't take anything in and when I look at something it doesn't look or feel real..Its all just anxiety and we have to someone try and remember that..yes I have a hard time trying to convince myself of that at times. Please don't feel helpless cause it will pass in time..I can't tell you how long it will take but it will...it passed for me the first time I had these feelings and I know this time it will too. You will feel yourself again. Is your bf supportive? Its good to have support while you are going through this.
Hiya,
Thank you for being so understanding. Yeah, it's like we're trapped in our own heads and can't pay attention to the things around us. I'm trying to meditate and have been going for reflexology. Meditation (once i can focus on it) is actually really nice and helpful whilst i'm doing it, but afterwards i sort of just go back to how i was. Reflexology i tried for the first time (for anxiety) last night and it really helped. I felt much calmer and at ease and didnt let my anxiety bother me. I did end up feeling like i do now after a few hours, but I had at least a few hours where i felt positive and normal. Agh it's just so horrible i want it to go and feel myself again. Yes, he is so supportive. I've told him about what i'm going through. I think he's struggling at the moment though, he's dealt with four weeks of me being like this and i think he's struggling to cope with it now. I feel really bad because i feel like i'm making him miserable and then i also get anxious because i get worried he's mad at me, and then i get a bit angry because i'm like 'it's not my fault i'm like this don't be mad at me!' which is ridiculous because he's probably not even mad at me in the first place haha. Urghh, it's all just so ridiculous and confusing. I feel like i'm going crazy sometimes
Becky you are not ridiculous but yes it can be confusing trying to get your head around what these feelings are. It good to hear that your bf is being supportive and I think it gets hard for partners to see the ones they love suffering and they feel helpless that they can't really do much to help but listen and be there. It does feel like you are going crazy at times but you won't. None of this is your fault don't ever think that..it is out of our control and frustrating at times. I know that if I don't think about whats outside or dwell too much on the feelings I can have a bit of relief..I just have to learn to stop trying to push to feel normal or try and see if the strange feelings are still there..this just makes things worse and keeps the feelings alive. Keep talking about it..I feel it helps.
Try progressive muscle relaxation.... And if no one is listening to you dont beg them to listen to you ... Take a notebook .. Write down all your thoughts , fears and notions on the notebook and it will take the Weight off your head... Try to think positive(i know its not easy) .. Jog whenever you feel overwhelmed... I myself have gone through anxiety
I just wish I could get my life back. I want to feel happy and in love. I want to be the bubbly person I know I am. But I just feel so miserable and hopeless. It just scares me how far away my boyfriend feels. My boyfriend means the world to me and i think thats why my anxiety is attatching itself to my relationship. But it's just so awful to feel this way and I don't see how it can get better. I don't know what to do
Hi Altair,
I have been writing things down, but i'm being careful not to write too much as it will feed the intrusive thoughts. I am going for runs and walks much more regularly now, it does help a little. I think its because i feel like I am doing something about it, instead of stewing in it at home. Even if I do that when I get home haha. How did you 'overcome' it?