ive battled depression my whole life

ive battled depression my whole life due to lack of caring parents and when i was able to get away from them i was able to work on myself and slowly get back to what most call normal six months ago i had a beautiful baby girl and everything in my life felt right again well three months ago i quit breastfeeding and now my depression is back and worse than ever and when i talk to people about it they tell me go see a doctor but all medicine does to me is make things worse and me crazy so im hoping by sharing this it might help me shed light on what to do and how to feel better please help im so tierd of being sad and tierd

I didn't go to doctors about my depression hun I had a crap childhood moved out at 16 got pregnant was depressed through pregnancy and then when my little one was born was fine 3 months later depression again and then second pregnancy at 19 life was great then 3 months after having my baby depression again back I think it's your body struggling with hormones and also have you been checked for anemia ? I know when I'm anemic I struggle more woth depression and I never knew I had it hun .

Let your body have time to adjust hunnie I had a depression break down last year my children are what kept me on my toes and eventually knocked me out of it I did not need tablets I realised they is certain things in life that snap you out of it have you tried cbt ? Xx

Im not sure what cbt is and i am 20 years old i also moved out at 16 when i look at my little girl i know i should be content and happy but something in my brain is saying i cant be

Cbt is where somebody talks to you about What depression is ect but also helps you find coping methods without meds .

Hun I know exactly how you feel I was exactly the same I scared my self also sometimes it's hard after having your own bad upbringing because you always wish it was different well I know I do and I kinda holder onto that until now when I hit 23 I realised I can't keep holding onto it and I need to give my babies everything I did not have .

Your little girl will love you and help you through things it's difficult at first and it's a struggle been a parent and exhausting in its self but they is light at the end of the tunnel you don't have to be pushed onto meds either if you go to doctors open up and tell them you do not want meds they can not force you onto them I have walked put plenty of times after crying in my doctors office and telling them about my depression it's nice to just get it all out even if you have struggles ect it's nice to open up and that's something you can do without been judged it sounds like you have postnatal depression hun be you got support partner ect to hep and talk with you x

Do ** not be

I went to the doctors when it first came back he said there is no way i have postpartum depression because its been to long and all he did was tell me to do mare daily activities which i try to but with a new baby its hard especially wjen her dad works full time thank you for responding