Just have a constant weird feeling all the time, constantly worrying I have some sort of weird mental illness or an underlying mental illness. I worry because I start thinking what if I though this about such a body and get myself all panicy where I feel like I don't know what to do with myself. Absolutely sick of it. Also feel like I've jinxed myself because I've said 'it's probably just my imagination' I hate this feeling!! I don't know what I am anymore, I feel like I just don't know myself feel like I have a different mind or something I just can't even explain it. I'm scared of everything all the time please someone just give me some hope!!!
I think we can all relate.do you feel scared all the time? Have you been diagnosed with anxiety?
Hi i feel like you said. Your not alone. For example i have been in bed feeling crazy sickness dizziness anxiety panic thinking the worse. I know how you feel. I woke up being unable to attend the family dinner my to children gave me a hard time which may me feel so low . The only thing keep me going is me and believe me that's not easy. I am on sertreline and amitripytline and diazepams 23mg which I am trying to clear my body with these drug's ten years on daizepams .and believe me when I say this, keep away from valium i have no control of my life no longer. Fingers crossed this withdrawal were it at the end.
My advice to you is to ride it out read tv write just work out how to control your mind. Easy enough to say but that's the only way
Hi Tanya
so how did Xmas day go did you have a nice meal pressure
I'm saying this as I would Like you to divert your attention away from the situation you are in
go for a walk read a book but ruminating over your thought will make you worse .
It does make it worse but this constant feeling of weirdness wont go away. I can't even be around my family anymore I feel scared because I don't want to feel like I don't belong with them
I went to A&E a few weeks ago after breaking down in school because I think I was trying to act normal when I just wasn't feeling it so it made me feel like I was going crazy and they said something about mild depression but I HATE labels like that it just makes me feel like I'm stuck in a hole with no way of getting out. I'm currently seeing someone from 42nd street but I don't feel she understands me properly because she never understands what I mean when I say I feel certain ways. I also went to the doctor when it wasn't as severe and she also did not say anything other than 'you're not crazy' but I didn't feel as bad as this and I asked for techniques and just said to come on here and said she would refer me to CAMHS which didnt happen (this was before I went to A&E)
Hi do you take any meds
I've been worrying about mental illness, it's terrifying. I'm also worried because I feel like a different person is that even normal. I just don't feel myself, like I do but feel foreign aswell as my family I just feel like there's a different bond with them now and it's actually scaring the life out of me as they are truly all I care about and I don't want to feel disconnected from them. I'm so lonely, confused and scared 
Also now worrying because I have no appetite and feel sick when I put food in my mouth thinking I'm going to end up with an eating disorder. I am truly tired of feeling like this I just want my mum but I feel weird around her!!!
Not currently I take Kalms though - feel like im jinxing myself AGAIN
I'm only 15 honestly don't want to rely on them anyway butttt yano
I feel EXACTLY the same. I've been to 5 psychiatrists and they all say it's anxiety, no a more serious mental illness. Which is good, but doesn't make the feeling any less scary. Let me know if a doctor tells you anything different. We can assure each other .
Do you also feel like you don't recognise yourself? Like you're aware its you but you feel like everythings changed in your head and it just makes you feel extremely fearful and just like your living a different life?? I don't even know I just can never ever exlain how I feel. I also get scared because I sit and think what if I suddenly started coming up with weird beliefs and then I think of something weird and I absolutely soil my self and feel like I don't know what to do. I ALSO worry myself by thinking ''what if I start hearing voices'' and it's just stuff like that I'm so afraid it's unreal
That's exactly how I feel. We just need to get out of our heads an stop thinking so much. Do you or your family have a history of anxiety or any other mental illness? Did you tell your doctor all your symptoms?
You shoul google "anxiety and depersonalization".
Well sorry to be personal, but my mums side have had quite an extreme life. Sexual abuse ect and my auntie suffers from extremely bad anxiety from traumas and my cousin had health anxiety and my uncle does and blahblah my mum doesn't quite seem to understand though, she says I need to get a grip and I'm just changing but I just don't know anymore I feel like my heads screwed up I'm questioning what the heck is up with me
You definitely have anxiety then, my dear girl. I've been anxiety free for 13 years and this just popped up again. I know I will get better, and you will too.
I have had it before but really it wasnt as extreme as this it's so sad because all I want is to feel like me again and I'm pushing my family away and my mum as she can't deal with it and it makes me feel pathetic because she has been through so much yet still all these years has managed to bring us up correctly and try and live out a normal life I feel like I just don't want anything in life anymore other than to feel normal and happy again like I used to, I have always been a dreamer or big success but I just don't have the drive anymore I need to cry but I can't haha feel emotionless
Have you got some good friends mates to hang around with
from experience when one of my kids was sure I was mad etc the behaviour I was forced into made her distant and likewise my kids behaviour made me worse it's a vicious no win both /all get hurt
Have a go u maybe surprised
I don't understand what u mean?? I don't really have many friends I lost them all due to feeling like I didn't quite fit in and they were all pretty and my confidence hasn't always been the best, but my uncle died and it was the first person in my family I experiened to die which did affect me in ways but also didn't in others as I didn't see him an awful lot but anyway they did nothing but critiscise why I was being off and then I went back to school and had no friends atall hahaha I was locking myself in toilets but yet again, I didn't feel too affected by this just a bit embarrassed but now I have one friend who is ill regularly because of her digestive system so I never really see her, I don't really have any hobbies or interests especially now as all I'm wanting to do is feel myself again
really sorry for the paragraph just thought I'd explain myself
Agree with gillian you need a distraction
Hi
you have friend but you don't see her often as she's unwell do you not think she may also be very distressed as to why her friend doesn't see her.
at 15you may think the worlds against you but you are also undergoing enormous changes (wait until your older and you'll look back and realise good gracious why was I stressing).
The fact you are on the pc this much indicates you need to diversify, be 15 !you know the story of the duckling that turned into a beautiful swan love yourself I bet you have a beauty that transparent superficial beauties don't have
if your "friends"make dumb arsed comments their not your real friends so don't harbour their adoration you get on study live your life and be someone, you can do this
15 years old , you got so many things to learn and to do . It should be a time to meet people. The are plenty of young people on this site that you could link up with. Just an idea but you could start a new Conversation ask for all the teens to get together and share your feelings. You just never know what and where the next friend comes from