Help !..... except Joanna....too tough for me. I cannot take that dimension of "help". I am a very sick person. This journey is killing me. Back off, to anyone who feels less than VERY KINDLY. I am a very sick person. I try to be kindly to others in this HELL of a situation, with alcohol. I cannot post what I really wanted to say.....because I cannot cope, again.
Hi there...what sort of help do you need? I am sorry that you are feeling so wretched. What would you like best to happen? X
Sorry you're feeling so bad today. Google (using Google in particular):
calm website
The top result should be for Calm (dot) com. It's just relaxing scenery and sounds, kind of meditatve. Might help to give you a break...
take it easy Alonangel. We are not judging you at all take each day gradually. Relaxing music is a good idea. Give yourself some treat when you do better and feel better. All the best to you!! Robin
I'm sorry you're feeling so wetched Alonangel. You feel like what you are going through is killing you. Well, to be blunt, alcohol can kill. I know you want kindness. Hopefully I'm being kind in saying be good to yourself, have lots of treats, do things you enjoy as much as you have the energy to, relax, go for walks, take long baths, watch movies, whatever distracts you from the desire for alcohol. And believe in yourself. You are a valuable human being, even if right now you don't feel that way. Good luck
Hey Alonanagel just letting you know people are here checking in on you to offer help and support for you.
What help is it you feel you need? From what I've read you don't feel the advice Joanna has given you is the route for you? Are you looking for alternate ideas for recovery? Have you spoke to any medical professionals about your situation?
Lots of love to you, hope this messag finds you well.
Thank you for answering, Lorna. I just want to be stronger than I am. I am so glad about help on this Forum. I hate my situation. I would like to be able to be better. Some aspects of help, on the Forum, are "too much" for me. I then feel bad about that ! I just cannot take judgement....I know the truth.....I don't need more. That is how it feels. I am doing everything I can to get better. Why should I nitpick my G.P., who has done the best for me...always, because I didn't get some "code"? I was prescribed Selincro, to help me...it is helping...but everything takes time. I am impatient. That does not mean that my doctor is bad !
Thank you. I will investigate, later. I don't think I've got a 'calm gene" !
Thank you h1954. I am just sick of it all. I try so hard...then fail. I can't take another failure. If this Selincro does not prove to be the answer, I do not know what can possibly be.
It's ok, just keep on telling us what you need.
I am also on Selincro Alonangel and I had a little breakdown because it wasn't working as fast as my prescribers said it would - they said I would see a change instantly. I haven't seen a change, but reading this forum I have realised as long as I am taking the tablets as prescribed (2 hours before I drink) I am doing the right thing and will see a difference eventually. So I am continuing with the drugs and persevering. The leaflet says I can expect to see a reduction in drinking within a month, I am only two months in, but again after reading the forum it may take longer, we just have to be persistent with taking the drug as advised.
I suggest you do the same and keep in touch, there are so many people in the same boat, it's good to keep in contact with others in the same situation, so we can support each other and know we are not alone in this struggle.
2 weeks that should say, sorry.
Alonangel. You have Alcohol use Disorder which is a physical illness and can be treated medically. While it is not your fault that you have this illness, it IS your responsibility to find a solution because nobody can force one on you that would work.
Joanna, like most people here has been there and used that medical help and has great knowledge of how to make it work. Don't dismiss her as too tough because she is simply trying to get you to see that this IS in your control if you can do things the right way.
I have seen MANY people with this condition feel totally helpless like you but the problem with allowing that to take over is that you push aside all possible solutions and you are worth more than that. You deserve a better life and, while some things you need to do to get it will be tough, the rewards of overcoming your issues will be massive.
Kindness is not 'allowing you to fall apart and then sympathising' but making sure that you are armed with the tools to fight and win. Having said that, as you see from the other comments here, people will give you support while you go through your difficult journey, including Joanna and me.
There will be other options. I hear your frustration with what you've tried in the past, but I see in it your incredible determination. You have what it takes, that's for sure.
Hi Aonangel. Really sorry to hear you are struggling. I know how hard this is but don't give in. Can you remember last week when I was really struggling and moaning, felt like giving up, felt really depressed and like the flu.? You were really kind and supportive with your comments. You and many others. So thanks for that as it helped me when I was in a horrible place. Now I'm feeling much better. I've even been for a swim today! I know it's working as I haven't drunk for 2 days. The hangover, withdrawals, were no where near as severe as previously when I've binged. Only lasted until ystd evening. This is because I'm not drinking as much now as when I used to, because the drug is working. Normally I can't get out of bed for 3 days!! And really horrendously sick. So just keep going and you will get there in the end.
As everyone says you have to spoil yourself with food, rest and sleep.
Really hope you have a better day tomorrow. Sending you lots of hugs xx
Thank you...and Thank you to Joanna as well, but I am not well. I have many, many problems. I can't cope. I can't take "tough love". I know how I am. I know the solutions. I have the ingredients...I just can't "bake the cake"! Please do not patronise me. You have not suffered this torture. I am in HELL on earth. I can't stand it. I do not want to be a victim of addiction. I have let everyone in my life, down. I have destroyed myself. I do not know who I am, anymore. Please, tread carefully among the dreadfully damaged. We are beyond fragile...I wish I was dead .....lots of times..... but I'm too scared about death to go there !
Thank you, my dear Paper fairy. You are a lovely, friendly, good person. I have just lost focus, on it all, over and over again. I am SICK OF IT ! SO, SO SICK !!!
The alcohol is not working. I have tried, despite the tablet, today. This level of reality is difficult. I am getting a result from medication.....now freaking with that.
What on earth do we do when we can't deal with this stage. I should feel good about this progress. I think I am just looking for a substitute .....and chocolate is not it !
Why do I need a substitute? Sorry about this .....I am sooooo sick !
You cannot accuse anyone of patronising you, that is a step too far. Did you see how many times you said the word "I" in your posts? Perhaps you should consider that you are not the only one who has "suffered this torture". Nobody can help you whilst you have such a selfish attitude. Sorry, I know you only wanted to hear "poor you" posts, but there are too many people on here who would benefit from your support and understanding. Paul and Joanna are amazing people who give so much of themselves, it hurt me to hear you criticising them.
I hope you come through this terrible time, I hope everyone who feels the need to post on this forum comes through the Hell on earth that you describe.
Pat
Oh my....you are really hurting 
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If you don't feel totally comfortable posting right now....you can private message me at any time.
We are all very sick, that is why we drink. No one is judging you, I think like you when I'm so depressed, as you are today. Some people do get tough with us, they only want to help. I can't take it when people are tough with me about my drinking. We are just too sensitive and can't take it, it's just the way we are made. Please don't take it to heart, we all want to help you get better. And you will..I have faith in you ❤️