I know I'm on here a lot but I'm really starting to feel like I've truly had enough of all this, every damm day is the same. Can't sleep and when I do I wake up feeling so sick, I feel dizzy and wobbly most of the time, every bone aches, my hair has thinned, ive put weight on, I have no womb, ovaries, cervix everything's gone, no HRT due to migraines a lot, can't concentrate, anxiety and panic attacks, I feel so done in like im about to die most days - how much longer can my heart keep beating keeping this wrecked body going and what for just to keep suffering every day, it's nearly three years of this and it's getting no better - hubby doesn't understand or care what's the point if it's always gonna be like this. Might as well give up this is no life it's just misery every day with new symptoms all the time crying and feeling so sorry for myself - im not a woman anymore im just a thing.
Oh Lou. Dont know what to say but hang on in there. The desperation is horrible. Have you tried the herbal route? Vit b? I'm sure you've explored every avenue so sending a big hug. And you ARE a woman. Thinking of you xx
Ur a woman and an amazing one at that. Keep going. It will get better. Lots of love xx
Hi there Lou,. I feel just like you bot I am 9 years postmenopausal. I guess most of this is anxiety. I have had the worst day ever. Palpitations sweats rubbery legs with massive leg jerking. Feet go numb anxious and jittery. My legs feel like they will not keep me up. Heart rate up blood pressure up. Feel like crap. Just to much.......and my husband doesn't get it.jyst want to feel normal again. It has been so long
I totally get where you are coming from. It's hard day in and day out to take this. Everyday is crappy physically, emotionally, mentally. Not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm in my 11th month of this. Can't imagine years of this. You're brave and strong enduring this that long.
Waiting to get my pelvic ultrasound as I write this. Hoping to get some answers so can feel better. So sick of Drs and tests and anything medical.
That's so bad I really feel your pain - 9 years really is evil. Yes I suppose a lot is anxiety, ive not long come out of hospital with yet another horrible panic attack that stems from me thinking I was having a heart attack - my face goes numb and tingly also pain that goes deep into my nose, jaw, ears, bloody everywhere - hospital said anxiety, how can that be. I hate hospitals they freak me out as ive had a fair amount of treatment and surgerys, ct scans, X-rays, so many gyne operations the last one being five hours long with a blood transfusion, to leave me like this - wrecked and mentally tortured. Hubby seems to think ill be ok ! he has no idea , I feel castrated and empty and yet he still wants sex, well I couldn't care less about that and if he can't handle that then it's too bad.........just so exhausted and hollow x
Have you tried meditation or relaxation techniques. Believe me they work. I have an app called "Calm" on my phone. Just keep telling yourself that every day you're getting closer to the end of these symptoms. Take care. My thoughts and prayers are with you dear.
Xx
Aww Lou,
You are are a wonderful and strong woman. You have being doing this journey with no HRT and that takes a strong person. I wish I could give you a date when it will end, but just know that it will end. You will not be the same person that you was before this journey. You will have become an even more stronger, better person to have braved this journey the way you have. Your day to feeling better is coming. Just continue to hold on. ((Hugs))
thank you Donna for your kind words. I really do hope it will get better but deep down I think this is it now - there's no going back, I can't get my organs back that made me feel feminine, my boobs have shrunk to horrible nothingness, everything down below is totally dead, I can't see the future being better truly I cant. I'm trying to be happy and trying so hard to look forward to things but through the pain every day it's hard to see the sunshine x😱
Thank you Carole and yes ive tried everything, vit b, c, d, e, you name it ive tried it and nothing makes the slightest difference to how I feel right now. My heart keeps beating but I'm not sure why 😰x
Thank you Jamie, your words have brought me to tears with your kindness but I'm being totally honest and my heart is racing again as I dread the long dark night to face yet another day dragging myself around feeling so ill. How can this ever get any better - will it ever ? Just to feel some Hope that one of the symptoms will go away - hospital says nothing wrong with me, heart, lungs, liver, all good - but they just don't get it my heart and soul are broken along with my body - it's so hard to explain to anyone just how I feel - the mental pain that breaks me every day - I feel castrated and empty, just can't explain . Trying to hold on to something but I don't know what and why, if this is it I don't want it 😰
Not sure how long you have been out of hospital but I hope you have given yourself time. Maybe speakingtosomeone would help.we as woman go through so much that men have no clue about. Please keep your chin up. Try ho do some nice things for yourself. Have you spoken to your doctor about this? Hugs to you
Thank you I WILL try it. Do you really think things will get better one day ? X
Thank you yes i got discharged from the hospital almost three years ago. I had a hysterectomy over 20 years ago leaving one ovary behind - I coped really well until I had a misdiagnosed borderline tumor 20x 20cms. This lead to ct scans and numerous tests but thankfully all was well thank god and I was discharged after regular scans and transvaginal exams. In fact the hospital was very pleased with my recovery and to be told there would be no more problems was the best feeling in the world, but it was when they symptoms started kicking in of surgical menopause that really knocked me as it was and still is so intense and forceful . Ive tried talking to my doctor but they are pretty useless to be honest, I was given Sertraline which made me worse and was offered counselling but that wasn't for me. I rang the Samaritans one night at 3am as I was feeling so wretched, but until someone's actually been through such a trauma they don't understand - also right after my surgery my father died in front of me and then my hubby had a heart attack at home in front of me also, so all in all its been a horrible journey which hasn't yet ended x
Hi 🙋🏻 I feel your pain it's the pits isn't it ? Have you tried taking a good quality liquid Magnesium at all ? If not I really recommend you start. Helped me tremendously, especially sleep.
Hugs,
Deb x
I understand and know exactly where you are coming from. It's hard to believe that you are fine when you physically feel ill and they don't understand the mental strain that it puts on you.
I know they will. I see older women all the time and they seem happy and carefree. I know they had to go through what we're going through and they're alive to tell about it and you will be too.
Hey hey.... You are not just a thing. Your a beautiful woman whose body is changing. It is like a roller coaster ride at the moment it sounds like it's a bit bumpy. Look in the mirror and tell yourself out loud your beautiful.
My husbands has similar traits to yours on a rough day!!!! He just carries pocket tissues if we go out together as he has learnt I will need them at some point- that's if I dare go out!!
Here to give you a peri hug x
Sazzie42
Thank you x
thank you - where can I get this from ? Is it just called liquid magnesium ? I can get some tomorrow x