All i wanted was my voice to be heard

Mental health
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All i wanted was my voice to be heard

But it's so hard to talk about the things Ive incurred

Sometimes I wonder what my life is worth

Why I was even put on this earth

What's the point, where do I belong?

What did I do, where did it go wrong?

Living life with these issues

No one listens, they just dismiss you

They don't know, they just don't see

They're happy and normal, they're not like me

If I told you my secret

would you listen, would you keep it?

Would you hear me? would you understand

Would you hug me and take my hand

Tell me it's ok that im not crazy

hold me tight and try to save me?

I Tried alone but it's just too tough

This world I hate, ive had enough

Tried so long, tried to survive

But all I seem to do is hide

need someone to be by my side

To help me to try and win this fight

But no one helps, have no one to be my guide

These feelings they just won't subside

want to commit suicide But how can I kill myself if I'm already dead inside?

Maybe it's over and I should finally give up

I'm Sick of being here, stuck in this rut

Fed up with life, i can no longer bear!

No one listens to me, no one cares

Life is so hard I wish you could see

Just how hard just breathing is for me

I'm sorry but maybe I should say goodbye

Don't want anyone to be sad, don't want anyone to cry

Im worthless, not worthy of your tears

I'm Just not strong, cant face my fears

Lived with them for too many years

I'm weak, im sorry, I try to be strong

but maybe this life isn't for me, maybe I don't belong

you don't know what its like

You don't how Im feeling

You only know what it is you're seeing!

You don't know how my days unfold

Living with these horrible stories that just can't be told!

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Hi Don Dons, beautifully put, you have a real talent. Dear xx

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Xx

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Told you you could write smile Although it being dark, you definitely can write. I've not dismissed you my friend, been physically screwed last few days and i do care xx

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I know you do xx

Sorry nothing against you, sorry really didn't mean to offend xxx

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Crazy you're not

It's just normality you forgot

There was a day when you felt well

But it's only on sickness you dwell

If you want your voice to be heard

You have to find the strength to

speak every word

Only then can they listen and possibly see

And help you be what you want to be

You're right I don't know what you're feeliing

I only know what I am seeing - in print

But you can''t know what I am thinking

Give medicine a chance you have to start somewhere

Your doctor is there to care

Depression is a terrible thing but you can find help

to overcome it

Try and be bold, try and be strong.

Take that first step to where you belong

 

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Thank you xx

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You are not worthless, YOU ARE VERY PRECIOUS.  It's the depression talking and making you think and feel this way.  Your writing is brilliant, I hope it's helping you to get it out of your system.  

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Inspiring words. I guess the pains of how you feel are still a pain in the ass. I guess nobody understands or is seeing what your going thru and it cant be easy to explain. 

Is the anyone you think that can help ? I am guessing that the friends you have either havent helped you so far or their is something key missing. I am just picking up the vibe from posts you sent. I totally understand how you feel sometimes about help, no one can solve my problems but me. But the friends I have made on her are one thing, and that's supportive and encourage ways of thinking differently. Admittably at times it might be not what I want to hear, but just sometimes the shake is enough for me to sort myself out.

Like you I suspect that not every person I meet or talk too will be there for me all the time, some will , some wont. The ones that wont well the is nothing I can do about it if they block me, ignore me ot tell me to get lost.

You really appear to have a battle on from what I have read recently, but its not impossible to rectify.I have known you since before Christmas, and seen you make some hard decisions to stop your medication and many other steps you put in the forums. I am hope one day the haze disappears for you and it all become clear as you have had too many consecutive battle which must be exhausting.

Take Care of yourself. Not sure how long my accounts going to be live as had some of my own challenges on the forums so just awaiting the closure. Like you say their are some cruel people out there.

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Thank you, and yes it does help a little xx

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Thank you jimmy but no there's no one, nobody nearby anyway xx