Recently ivebeen getting really anxious about change. Can't stop comparing my life to what I was like a year ago. I just feel like I'm stuck and I'll never get a job and feel like my normal self just feel like I have no emotions sometimes. I basically live at my boyfriends and I hate the thought of going home and stuff.. Even though I know I have too it just makes me feel anxious. I'm only 18 but I can't imagine being 30 and drivin to work and taking my kids to school.. May sound weird but just the thought of everything changing freaks me out, sick of the butterflies and feeling low and thinking about everything. I've got therapy starting 21st March. Anyone experienced the same thing or has any advice ?
Is there a reason why you dont want to go home?
There must be but I don't know it. Also had a very bad dream last night about my partner cheating. These dreams are so disturbing
Your dreams are not reality, they are made up by your mind while sleeping. Learn to tell yourself that the only thing my dreams maybe telling me I have a fear of this possibly, but are not reality.
It sounds like your home life is uncomfortable for you. You seem like you need to seek counseling on how to deal with your feelings about your home life!
I just feel like everyone around me is doing things and I just don't like talking to people I used too and I'm in a rut and I'll be stuck in it forever. My relationship isn't the healthiest but feel like I don't have anything else
have you thought about facing your fears and going home and dealing with your emotions there?
You're right. It's silly I'll just have to get a grip and do it. Can't keep moaning nothing's changing but not pushing myself I suppose.. Just feel bad I let my family down by not seeing them much I really love them but they just don't understand my anxiety
it's not their fault, it's hard to understand.
have you tried being honest with them?
Yes I know it is of course and yeah they know all about it they are just convinced it's my relationship with my partner.. Which sadly I can see where they are coming from xx
ah that's unfortunate.
do they not like your partner?
My dad has never met him but he's seen me upset before because of things he's said to me.. He has just an opinion but going to take him over soon I think.
that's good, will that help?
Hey katie2705. The first thing I would like to tell you and it may not seem relevant but baby you are way to young to have such long term feelings like you are.Go home. Tell someone who gives a sh*t. Get help. Find someone who is crazy over you...or if nothing else a puppy! For REAL. I hope you haven't started self medicating, for there is no correct dose of anything you prescient yourself. Don't wait until you are 40 or 50 and decide to get help then, you can waste a lot of happy being sad. I don't know your whole story, but I can tell you that at 18 you are NOT with the man who will love you forever. GO HOME
Katie!!!! You are screaming your answer but you can't hear yourself! You are stuck between not wanting to go home or staying with what sounds like a miserable relationship! Drop that boy like a hot potato and high tail yourself to a good therapist or a group such as codependent anonymous. You are too young to be stuck in a rut already
I know your right probably right. It just seems hard.. I do love him I've known him years but I've got to learn to love myself more