Hello everyone. I have been diagnosed with depression for a year now and I am scared I might feel like I want to commit suicide again. I started being depressed since highschool because I was bullied. I eventually dropped out and studied on my own for 2 years and got in to university, but starting from the second semester I got severly depressed. I think it was because I was majoring in something I didn't want to and pressuring myself to do better though, I didn't have issues with friends. Everyday it got worse, so I had to sign up for temporary leave in the middle of the semester. I was just planning to take that semester off, but the school recommended I take a year off, so I did. After that I got help from a psychiatrist and I've been taking antidepressants since. But now I have 3 monthes till the new semester starts, and I'm afraid the same thing might happen again. After everything that happened I am now trying to do what I want to do in my life, so I am conflicted whether if I should continue my studies at my current university. Can anyone give me advice on what I should do?
Hi all I can say is if you are making progress in what you really want to do then why go back to a course you didn't enjoy before? That wouldn't make any sense to me! Would this course take you any closer to your dream? If so then try again. If not then ditch it or maybe see if you can change it. Good luck. x
Hi ilikeapples - the anxiety is related to your past experiences which is perfectly natural. If the course is something you are not interested in then drop it. If you don't like it now, how will you effectively work in that arena in the future? Do what you love to do, it will be the rock to hold onto when things get tough. One of the issues with depression is the uncertainty of what to do next - or with life. Make the decision that most inspires you, something that you love to do and it will all fall into place. Are the meds working for you?