hi, i not really sure how to start this, and i just need to get it out. i have just turned 14, but i can feel like i cam celebrate my birthday or anything. i have been speaking to a counsellour but it still feels like no one understands me. i feel like i could have ocd or something wrong with me and i want an answer. its been like this for nearly 2 years bur its never been this bad this past year. i spend hours obsessing and thinking about who i can trust, i spend ages hearing everyday sounds so loud and it feels like their delibrately toturing me. i constantly think about why im thinking, what im thinking, and why i cant make it stop. and it try to make them stop, some i dont know why i do them i just know i have to and if i dont i have this feeling that something terrible is going to happen and i feel sick. hearing those noises like a clock ticking, someone chewing or just even more than one person talking at once feels horrible, and i feel so anxious yet i think about it over and over so i try to stop feeling anxious by forcing worded thoughts into my head, eg your horrible, or you cant trust anyone. or i daydream. i live a different life a d im obsessed with my daydreams. ive tried to tell my parents about i but i only told them i get anxious. not that living or doing anything makes me question everything. and i want to show them im insane, i want to be sectioned sometimes, because then im safe, i can be fixed. i want to be taken seriously by anyone, ive told my parents nearly 4 times how anxious i feel, but its still here a d theyve never understood. but this feels like the last time. i cant take this anymore, i cant go to school, i cant simply live. i want to tell them everything so i can actually go get an answer, bur i dont know how. i too scared to change anything. amyway i doubt anyone will see this but if you do, please help me. i feel like im in hell ans i cant take this much longer :)
I am so sorry you are going through this. It must be difficult and scary for you.
First of all, you are NOT insane. you are also not alone. Millions of people all around the world suffer from mental health issues such as anxiety, OCD, depression, etc.mental health and physical health make up the entire health of the body.
It’s nothing to be ashamed of. It’s no different than somebody having diabetes or heart disease or kidney stones or any other medical condition. It just happens to be related to the nervous system and the brain . anxiety and related conditions are the number one reason that people speak with counselors.
Your issue could possibly be caused by long-term stress and anxiety. You may or may not have OCD, you may only have Anxiety that is getting in the way of your daily life.
Anxiety and OCD often go together but not always. Anxiety and depression often go together. Some people are depressed and they don’t even know it.
SO anxiety can cause people to have strange and negative thoughts. Like you said you think about something over and over and that is extremely common with anxiety. EVEN if you had OCD, that can be managed so that you can feel so much better! But for now you don’t really know for sure. You definitely have anxiety.
WHAT you need right now is support. What does the counselor think? If you’re not getting any good support from the counselor, you do need to speak to another one who can really help. Is there a school counselor? That might be a good step. Remember they are not allowed to tell anybody what you talk to them about. It would be strictly confidential. but you have to start somewhere.
Try talking to your parents again. tell them exactly what’s going on and you are desperate and miserable. if they don’t listen, do you have any family members you can talk to? You need somebody who can get you in the right direction to the right counselor.
ABOVE ALL, DO not EVER give up! Your situation can be reversed! The beginning seems very difficult because you’re trying to get some support but it will be so worth it when you finally do! I am so glad I did not give up when I was your age because now I can look back and think how happy I am that I hung in there and got support. LIFE does get better!
we are here for you! Message us anytime you have questions or concerns. And take one day at a time!
YOU CAN FEEL BETTER! if you are in the US, here is a number if you need to talk to somebody anytime 24 seven. It’s confidential. 800 273 8255.take care of yourself 