Hi I dont even know where to start, its took me alot to come onto here! Ive read through some peoples posts and its a slight comfort to know im not the only one who feels like this. I really just thought i wasnt normal, anyway im 25 & for the past say 7 year ive constantly felt down n never really felt happy over the past 2year ive gradually getting worse where i dont want to leave the house even though i need to for work( i work nightshift)before i leave for work i always plan what i'll do if i see people sad i know i just constantly feel judged. After leaving the house i always feel panicy and i cant control it. As soon as arrive home the next morning i feel less panicy because im in my comfort zone. Im very lonely i have family but they dont bother with me, i live with my mam but shes always working, shes a big drinker and is also quite down alot. Ive tried talking to friends how i feel but noone understands one friend even said i was miserable now when im around her i have to put an act on so i dont seem miserable its took over my life. Its at the point i only leave the house when im at work. I wont even step foot in the garden on my day off. I wake up on a morning & have nothing to look forward to id rather sleep my days away. Ive never felt happy in a very long time theres alot more i could but id be here all day
Hi there im sorry you feel that way have you considered going to your gp for help do you have a reason for feeling this way perhaps its something you haven't dealt with in your past and maybe getting beyong your depression will help you and also overcome any anxiety issues you may have people are always willing to help and listen on this site if you need to please feel free to pm me if you just want to talk and dont worry about what other people say to you its all about how you feel about yourself not how others see you
Hi yeah i can think of a couple reasons and i wouldnt even know how to try dealing with them, i really do think i need to see my gp. I cant help but worry about what others think of me my lifes been took over im existing rather than living. On a daily basis on a scale from 1-10 10 being happy im always a 3. I cant remember the last time i actually genuinely laughed. Thank you for the reply i really appreciate it
Please dont put off going to your gp they can really help from medication to counselling different treatments help you deal with your past and get you to hopefully smile again and then who knows maybe you will see yourself as a 10 as being happy it is were I want to be and I am fighting my depression but it is a long path and no quick fix I did think I could deal with it on my own but I just got deeper and deeper and then just broke down and now have the help and support I much needed I am on medication and seeing a counsellor not quite ready to return to work yet but please note there is help you just to have to reach out and find it
Thanks jason
Glad your getting the help!
Im scared about going to the gp as i get very nervous around people im a nervous wreck at work but again i put a huge act on i dont even know the real me anymore. No one i work with knows the truth i know i shouldnt but i feel ashamed ive heard people i work with have convos about young people being depressed/suicidal and they say how can they be depressed there to young they have nothing to be depressed about they havnt even lived yet! My family dont bother with me because i never go to family gatherings again because im to nervous around people so i end up getting to drunk and making an idiot of myself and for days after feel suicidal/down
Please dont feel suicidal I have had them dark thoughts and I know I never want them again I am a single parent trying to raise my son who is 9 and he is my reason for not going through with it please seek help there are a number of services you can contact and please know your gp is completely confidential so you can explain yourself freely I broke down and cried in front of mine and that was so tough but I am pleased I have done it and getting myself back to being me I have very supportive friends to ones that check on me regularly and make sure I am ok and I have given people advice on here many times hopefully I have helped and with the right help and support you can get to be yourself again
Thank you jason ive just booked an appt for monday with my gp. It must of took alot for you to do that! Atm i dont feel like anything/anyone can help me but as you said its the first step. Its nice you have caring friends too
Just please be strong and you will get through this the first step is very hard but staying on the path and not giving up is even harder but just know in the end it will make you feel so much better about yourself and make you so much stronger if I had a pound for everyone who has told me it will better I have heard it that many times but I want to be better and if you do to then I believe you can be strong enough to do just that just take that first step I am on here if you want to talk before hand you can pm if you wish it can also help if you write everything down first I wrote so many things about how I felt sometimes a long story sometimes just one line but it helped getting stuff out perhaps it can help you
Ive not tried that but i'll give it ago, i never knew there was as many people who felt this way, thanks i'll message you if i need to talk. If you dont mind me asking how old are you? I feel embarressed when talking to people so hold alot back
I am 35 on Saturday so getting old lol and yes so many people feel this way it is by far uncommon but it does go unnoticed because people with it tend to hide the truth from people who think wont understand or might think we are just attention seeking but its never the case because what we have is mental not physical so our illness canot be seen but it can be treated if we seek help to be ourselves
Great advice Jason has given. I cannot add to anything because he's touched base with all. Great job, Jason! I will say, please don't contemplate suicide as it's just a means to end your pain, check deeply inside yourself and you'll find the answer why you're depressed. Possibly a bad childhood, past memories etc...A good author stated : If you want to find your purpose in life, find your wound. So true, so true.
Good luck
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