Hi Fiona,
A year later and coming to terms with the fact I contracted herpes, I absolutely know how you feel. I was utterly devastated and felt completely betrayed. I was so depressed and I genuinely felt that my life was shattered and I would never be able to find someone or ever settle down because of the stigma and fear of passing it on.
However, there is a way forward! Having done significant research on the topic, especially reading scientific literature and experiments published on the topic and just wanted to put some facts out there as this wasn't very clear or evident when I was looking for support (a lot of articles on the net are very pessimistic and demoralising!).
Despite the risk of passing on herpes without symptoms (asymptomatic shedding), there is a lot of compelling research to suggest that taking suppressive treatment significantly reduces the risk of transmission.
Statistically (supported by scientific research):
- If partners avoid sex during outbreaks: 4% chance transmission from female to male; 8% male to female
- If partners also use condoms OR antiviral medication: 2% female to male; 4% per year male to female
- If partners also use condoms and antiviral medications: 1% female to male; 2% male to female
These statistics are 4% PER YEAR of having regular sex, NOT a 4% risk every time you have sex. (The chance per occasion would be 4% divided by 365 days = 0.0001, equivalent to 1/10,000 chance of passing it on in one sex session. This is WITHOUT suppressive treatment)
This statistic is halved when using either condoms OR suppressive treatment (1/20,000 chance per occasion you have sex) and then halved again if you use both condoms AND suppressive treatment (1/40,000 chance per occasion you have sex)
I am currently taking Acyclovir twice a day having done so for about 4 months now and I've never had an outbreak since (coming from someone who used to have outbreaks at least once a month!).
Hope this helps! Please don't feel like you're in despair or you're dirty or less of a person for having this. At the end of the day it's just a virus. It doesn't shorten your life, or make you infertile like other STDs. You can manage it symptomatically by preventing outbreaks from happening in the first place, in addition to the fact that this also dramatically reduces the risk of passing it on.
I'm currently seeing an amazing guy (something I thought I could never have!) who knows about the fact I've had herpes in the past, and after telling the facts to him and explaining I'm on suppressive treatment and the very small statistical risk to him, he's absolutely fine about it and we have amazing sex all the time!
I got all my info from the articles below. I hope this helps you and others and gives you confidence and a positive attitude to go forward. Herpes really isn't that bad! You just need to be informed of the facts
Good luck!
http://www.dynamiclear.com/blog/herpes-transmission.htm
http://justherpes.com/dating/herpes-transmission-rates-how-not-to-give-partner-herpes/
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/14702423/
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16238897
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15319087
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15378428